Sex, Lies, & Cigarettes - The Lifestyle of Indonesians

this video was shared by someone in the group that I joined about a month ago. it tells story about how cigarettes affect people in this country: Indonesia. watch this. I hope it will change your point of view if you are a smoker.

My Kinda Guy

so I met this guy not so long ago. after the guy whom I thought would be my prince charming turned into a frog, he came and saved me.
he's not cute, he's not rich, he's just an ordinary man. oh, I haven't told you. his name is Oktavianus Nopriyanto Nugroho and I called him all the names that I want. lol.
he's 11 years older than me. it's actually a huge different because the last time I dated someone who's way older than me is like... 6 or 7 years ago.
what I like from him is he's a romantic person. all of my days are fulfilled with surprises.
I'm amazed by the way he remembered every single thing I said. things I like or I don't like, what I do before I go to bed, my favorite color, everything.
It's also very surprising when he knew what I thought about. I mean, it wasn't happen very often, was it?

In my life, no one has ever introduced me to his parents. But he did it. So this one day, when he came to my place from work, he said that he will introduce me to his mom. I was speechless. A little bit panicked because I wasn't prepare anything for that night. Even though it wasn't a formal night, I keep asked questions. "How do I look?" or "Do your mom's gonna like me?" are the most question that I asked over and over again. But that night went well. I WAS SO EXCITED! That was probably the greatest night that ever happened in my life! :D
We do fight a lot! Almost every single day. There are always things that make us fight. Simple things actually. He said it's because we meet every day. I don't think so. I mean, that's what we do, right? We fight. But I never worried about that because I know things are going to be okay between us two.

I don't know how long this one is gonna last. Maybe just for a few months, or maybe forever. all I can do is hope for the best.
I've been in so many relationships with men with different characters. The thing is: Nobody's Perfect. No one.
You can wait for someone cute or tall or smart but the fact is, there's always a part of them that make them imperfect. I've been with rich guy but he is so goddamn cocky. I've been with smart guy but he is heartless. I've been with handsome guy but he's a liar. So, nobody's perfect.
Like I told you before, this man who is in a relationship with me now is not cute or rich. But how he loves me, how he cares for me, how he gives everything he has for me, really open my eyes. He's that kind of guy every girl wants.
He's that kind of guy I've always wanted. :)

It's A New Layout!

Yay! After almost 6 hours struggling with HTML codes, finally I made it!
You don't know how happy I am right nowww! :D
But it's not perfect yet. I'm still working on the sitemap and I supposed to have a RSS button.
I also need to work with the fonts.
I don't like the fonts that I have now.

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I hope you have fun with my blog now.
I put some movies I like on the top. :D
I also put my contacts here. So that people can contact me for any reviews or giveaway.

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So readers, can't wait to see your next comment.
And don't forget to subscribe! later. :*

What Am I Good At?

so, since my old LDR was over, I keep thinking about what kind of relationship that suit for me?
it sounds silly, isn't it?

I mean, now I'm in a relationship with this man.
we meet everyday since the first day of our relationship.
and now I think, he is bored with me.

well, probably, this you-can-meet-everyday relationship won't work too.
so, if someone will easily gets bored with their partner, what is a marriage for?
if I can't have a you-can-meet-everyday relationship, then I can't have a marriage.

ah that's stupid.
I used to think I'm not gonna get married, but now I know that it's good to have someone who can take care of you when you're getting old, slow and weak.

well, lets just see what's gonna happen next. =}

Working

Hi readers.
Kinda miss you. :)

Since I'm no longer in a relationship with the one who lives in USA, I'm back.
I'm not gonna stop posting in English though.

I think that's all for now.
I'm still working on fixing my heart. lmao.
jk.
I'm not that broken duh.

love you, readers. :*

Love Made Me Blind

Never thought that I'd say
I Wish I didn't love you ever since the first date
When you got close my heart would just stop
Thought me and you together would end up on top..

You changed me for better for worse
I know I was caught up always put you first
I never once thought you would be triflin
But oh I was blinded...

I was like oh
Never wanna let you go
Cause I was open before (I was open before)
But now I know

That love made me blind
So I couldn't see
All the lies you told
Were right in front of me

Since love made me blind
You made a fool of me
You made it look so perfect when it wasn't meant to be
Your love made me blind

I gave all of my trust
Didn't think being faithful was asking to much but
I'm good glad that I know now
I was fooled but fate let me see how

They say every tear has it's reasons
Every smile has it's own season
Never once thought you'd be this triflin
But oh I was blinded...

I was like oh
Never wanna let you go
Cause I was open before (I was open before)
But now I know

That love made me blind
So I couldn't see
All the lies you told
Were right in front of me

Since love made me blind
You made a fool of me
You made it look so perfect when it wasn't meant to be
Your love made me blind
Love made me blind
Love made me blind
Your love made me blind

Cause when I
I felt your lips pressed against mine
Thought the sweet smell of your perfume was all mine
They didn't know you were a beautiful liar..
Cause love made me blind

Love made me blind
So I couldn't see all the lies you told
Were right in front of me
Since love made me blind
You made a fool of me
You made it look so perfect when it wasn't meant to be
Your love made me blind..

Where'd You Go?

I haven't seen you in a while.
I mean, I'm not planning on checking you on twitter.
But when I opened your site, I saw your tweets.
You're on your holiday.
I wish you are.

how are you? okay?
I know I can't be by your side.
but, I mean, I do care about you and your condition right now.
at the top of it I am concern about your kids.

so since you're not being online these days, I decided to blog.
I wish you read this. so you can tell me any news about your condition right now.
your brother promise me he will call me as soon as something BAD happen to you.
until now, he doesn't chat me again. I hope it means you're getting better.

it's 2012, sir. and I'm mad at you.
first, you're not wake up yet.
stop pretending like you're not hearing your brother or everyone around you. you probably can't hear me typing now. or read this shit. but I mean, you know how many people want you to stay ALIVE. stubborn asshole!

second, we're still break up.
okay, I don't care about me not being your woman anymore. but you broke up with me and then I heard about you at the hospital? it makes me wanna throw up.
I feel wrong.

now you and your brother fonts are the same. IDK if it's only because he took your ID, but you guys have the same way of typing.
and it's driving me crazy, cfho83. *sorry for use that a.k.a. now you better say something to me*

so asshole, I don't care where your soul is traveling right now. just make sure it won't get lost. come back and type to me like you hate me.
fuck you.