Happy new year, fellas!
My first post in 2016 is basically a note I wrote back on my birthday.
I'm sitting here practically alone. Thinking about life and what I've been through for the last 24 years.
To all of you who don't know, today is my birthday. But since I'm too old for birthday party, I didn't celebrate or party.
My family on the other side, threw a birthday surprise for me. Attended by close relatives only. 30 people were there, singing and dancing. I am happy.
My birthday is kinda awkward because it's between Christmas and New Year. So I never celebrate since everyone will be busy during that period of time. But I am grateful for what my Mom did today.
What was I doing? Oh yeah, thinking about what I've been through for the last 24 years. There are (few) things I am proud about and (more) things I am not. I achieved more than what I expected. The family, friends, and job that I really love. Still, I am human and I did bad things too. I smoke, I drank (not too much, but enough to get me drunk), and I met some guys I wasn't supposed to encounter with. Now these parts right here, are the reasons why I am the person I am. So, for that, I am also grateful.
Now I'm thinking about 2016.
I am not a planner. I don't do planning. I like spontaneous things. But that's gotta change if I want better future for myself.
I have a lot of plans now.
I want to be a photographer. You might think that photography is kind of everyone's hobby these days. Well, I don't care. I fell in love with the process. It's amazing what you can do with pictures.
I want to be videographer, too.
I practically just want to do things with camera.
And this is going to be a very expensive hobby.
So, that's why I need to make plans.
Starting with the money-saving problem.
I'm 24 years old, single, and broke.
Yeah, really.
No, family's money is not the same with my money.
I work for today. I live for today. I eat for today. I don't worry about future because I don't think I am ready for the future.
That's why I gotta start saving. Let's just hope it's not too late.
Next, the 'single' problem.
Well, I don't see that being single is a problem. I am pretty happy with my life these days. I got the family and friends and it's more than enough.
I do want a dog though.
That'll be hard since my mom hates dogs. She thinks they are dirty. I think she has some concern about either my health and the cleanliness of the house.
Ah, I am so far from the subjet.
2016, though.
I got high expectations for 2016. So I am gonna start to list the things I need to achieve. Or in another words: making resolutions.
Fissheal's 2016 Resolution(s):
1. Stay happy.
2. Save 6 millions before June.
3. Do some investments with Mom.
4. Make another 6 millions before Christmas.
5. Quit my job (don't get me wrong, I love my job now, but family matters too).
6. Move back to Manado since I've already had the money from the investment. (HAHAHA EVIL LAUGH)
7. Learn how to ride motorcycle (all kind of motorcycle).
8. Get a dog.
9. (Maybe) buy a car (or even a house).
10. Lose weight.
11. Get a boyfriend.
I think that's all.
I just realized that you can pretty much sum up my resolutions as: get successful, get prettier, then get a boyfriend (and/or a dog).
I'll add some more if I got another plan for my future.
I am still on my way flying back to Jakarta. Got 1 hour and 20 more minutes so I'm gonna try to sleep some more because if I don't stop typing I might end up with a novel about my thoughts. LMAO.
1 hour later.
Haven't landed yet. Couldn't sleep. Too tired yet too excited. I'm gonna start edit some videos later and post it on my Facebook and Youtube. There are tons of work to do tomorrow at the office as well.
So I guess this is the end of my notes (and blog post).
Watch the videos later.
Seeya!
Saturday, January 2, 2016
Sunday, February 1, 2015
Death
Lately I've been thinking about death. Mostly about death. I was thinking about work and boys and other stuff too but death is approximately 80% inside my head. Sometimes I wonder if there is anyone out there who might know what is life after death feel like.
I am raised as a Christian. So since I was a kid I've been told that when I die, I will go to either hell or heaven. Judging the life I am living now, I am not so sure about heaven. The logic about Christianity that I've been taught is as long as I believe in Jesus Christ as God, I will go to heaven. But what if I make mistakes along the way? Actually, it's not a what if. As a human being, of course I will make mistakes. I already did. Humans are sinners. No matter how many times we tried to be good, we will never be as good as God.
So, enough about religion. Let's go back to death.
What scares me the most is hell. But what scares me the second most is the imagination of me inside a crate. Have you guys watched 'Buried'? Yeah, the movie which starring by Ryan Reynolds. Now THAT is one scary movie. Well, I know when I die it's only the body that going to stay in the crate. I know that my soul is going to wondering around. Still, the feeling of being held in a small space with no oxygen is scared me.
Then, I thought about being cremated. It's the easiest way and cheapest way. I could ask my mom or sister or whoever left in my family to spread my ashes on the sea. Always love the sea. But fire? Hell no. Yes, I realize I'm not gonna feel the pain when I die. But I watched William being cremated and it looks... hot. Not sexy hot but warm hot.
Up until now I still haven't decided yet. Too many options. Whenever death comes into my head, I tried to swipe it away by thinking about sea, or city lights. I have to admit I am scared of death. Maybe because I am not a good person, and thinking about going to hell is not helping.
I am raised as a Christian. So since I was a kid I've been told that when I die, I will go to either hell or heaven. Judging the life I am living now, I am not so sure about heaven. The logic about Christianity that I've been taught is as long as I believe in Jesus Christ as God, I will go to heaven. But what if I make mistakes along the way? Actually, it's not a what if. As a human being, of course I will make mistakes. I already did. Humans are sinners. No matter how many times we tried to be good, we will never be as good as God.
So, enough about religion. Let's go back to death.
What scares me the most is hell. But what scares me the second most is the imagination of me inside a crate. Have you guys watched 'Buried'? Yeah, the movie which starring by Ryan Reynolds. Now THAT is one scary movie. Well, I know when I die it's only the body that going to stay in the crate. I know that my soul is going to wondering around. Still, the feeling of being held in a small space with no oxygen is scared me.
Then, I thought about being cremated. It's the easiest way and cheapest way. I could ask my mom or sister or whoever left in my family to spread my ashes on the sea. Always love the sea. But fire? Hell no. Yes, I realize I'm not gonna feel the pain when I die. But I watched William being cremated and it looks... hot. Not sexy hot but warm hot.
Up until now I still haven't decided yet. Too many options. Whenever death comes into my head, I tried to swipe it away by thinking about sea, or city lights. I have to admit I am scared of death. Maybe because I am not a good person, and thinking about going to hell is not helping.
Monday, November 3, 2014
There Go The Sad Songs On My Playlist
Hi, Readers. Been a while. I've been wanting to write, but since I am working now, I always have a limited time. Until today.
Well, I still am working, I am working now actually. But I wanted tosteal few times.
As you all know, everytime I wrote something it was always about love and depression.
This time is no different. I met someone.
Someone who has this capability to turn my whole life upside down in less than 2 weeks.
His initial is R.
So we met at the office, he only worked here for a month or so. Then he decided to resign.
I tried to convince him not to, but it didn't work. So I lost him.
Let's go back to the beginning...
I first talked to him on October 5th at a gathering.
He laughed at my jokes, I mean, people did too. So at first I didn't think he was that special..
Our next meeting outside the office was at another gathering on October 11th or 12th. I forgot.
But he was busy taking notes and everything, and I was busy talking to the guests.
Then, he drove me to the office to drop some stuff. That was a kind gesture and the first time I was touched.
Didn't tell him because that would screw things up.
We talked few times on WhatsApp.
But sometimes it took a while for him to reply. I didn't bother to ask him why. Because at first, it didn't matter.
Until I realized, I waited for his replies and I didn't even know why.
Then when the gossip spread at the office that he was about to resign, my brain was like "you should go talk to him".
So I did and he told me everything on why he wanted to resign and stuff.
That was on October 22nd.
Since that day, we've been talking a lot.
He taught me Chinese and stuff. We found out things about each other that surprised us.
I knew he was surprised because he has this kind of expression where he couldn't hide things.
He surprised me a couple times. Not by what he said, but mostly because of his gestures and the way he thinks.
Somehow, for me it's... beautiful.
Remember when I said I couldn't date anyone?
Well, he shattered those walls. The ones I've built for 2 years.
You probably think, "Fie, it's not the first time you posted a post about a guy after you broke up with your last ex."
I know.
But he's the first person who successfully made me cry.
You know, that kind of crying that puts you to sleep. The kind of sadness that makes you cry with no sound. That makes you running out of breath.
Yeah, after 2 years, I finally felt that kind of sadness again.
I told him I like him. Right before we go our own way, he asked me about religion and stuff.
(FYI, he's Chinese and a Moslem. Yet after 11 years I finally fell for a Chinese guy all over again)
I said I'm OK if my boyfriend has different religion. I have two ex-es who have different belief.
He asked about my mom what would my mom say ifI have a boyfriend with another religion.
But here's the thing, my mom never wanted me to have a boyfriend. So it doesn't really matter.
I think I like him.
I like him more than I like him.
OK. I think I love him.
But is it possible to fall in love with someone you've only known for less than a month?
Or is it just another crush?
I don't know yet. Time will tell.
PS: I told him about this blog, so one day he will probably read this.
This is my message for him in case he's reading this:
"R, you know you're amazing in your own way. Never change. Remember the girl you told me you like? Remember how I told you she's a very lucky girl? I meant it. She is a very lucky girl. So lucky that I wish I was her. I'm sorry I didn't tell you this earlier, but late is better than never, so here it is: I like you. I like you more than I supposed to be. I like you more than I like you. You made me happy. I think I love you but I still need more time to figure it out. Thank you for brought up the best in me. Don't ever change."
Well, I still am working, I am working now actually. But I wanted tosteal few times.
As you all know, everytime I wrote something it was always about love and depression.
This time is no different. I met someone.
Someone who has this capability to turn my whole life upside down in less than 2 weeks.
His initial is R.
So we met at the office, he only worked here for a month or so. Then he decided to resign.
I tried to convince him not to, but it didn't work. So I lost him.
Let's go back to the beginning...
I first talked to him on October 5th at a gathering.
He laughed at my jokes, I mean, people did too. So at first I didn't think he was that special..
Our next meeting outside the office was at another gathering on October 11th or 12th. I forgot.
But he was busy taking notes and everything, and I was busy talking to the guests.
Then, he drove me to the office to drop some stuff. That was a kind gesture and the first time I was touched.
Didn't tell him because that would screw things up.
We talked few times on WhatsApp.
But sometimes it took a while for him to reply. I didn't bother to ask him why. Because at first, it didn't matter.
Until I realized, I waited for his replies and I didn't even know why.
Then when the gossip spread at the office that he was about to resign, my brain was like "you should go talk to him".
So I did and he told me everything on why he wanted to resign and stuff.
That was on October 22nd.
Since that day, we've been talking a lot.
He taught me Chinese and stuff. We found out things about each other that surprised us.
I knew he was surprised because he has this kind of expression where he couldn't hide things.
He surprised me a couple times. Not by what he said, but mostly because of his gestures and the way he thinks.
Somehow, for me it's... beautiful.
Remember when I said I couldn't date anyone?
Well, he shattered those walls. The ones I've built for 2 years.
You probably think, "Fie, it's not the first time you posted a post about a guy after you broke up with your last ex."
I know.
But he's the first person who successfully made me cry.
You know, that kind of crying that puts you to sleep. The kind of sadness that makes you cry with no sound. That makes you running out of breath.
Yeah, after 2 years, I finally felt that kind of sadness again.
I told him I like him. Right before we go our own way, he asked me about religion and stuff.
(FYI, he's Chinese and a Moslem. Yet after 11 years I finally fell for a Chinese guy all over again)
I said I'm OK if my boyfriend has different religion. I have two ex-es who have different belief.
He asked about my mom what would my mom say ifI have a boyfriend with another religion.
But here's the thing, my mom never wanted me to have a boyfriend. So it doesn't really matter.
I think I like him.
I like him more than I like him.
OK. I think I love him.
But is it possible to fall in love with someone you've only known for less than a month?
Or is it just another crush?
I don't know yet. Time will tell.
PS: I told him about this blog, so one day he will probably read this.
This is my message for him in case he's reading this:
"R, you know you're amazing in your own way. Never change. Remember the girl you told me you like? Remember how I told you she's a very lucky girl? I meant it. She is a very lucky girl. So lucky that I wish I was her. I'm sorry I didn't tell you this earlier, but late is better than never, so here it is: I like you. I like you more than I supposed to be. I like you more than I like you. You made me happy. I think I love you but I still need more time to figure it out. Thank you for brought up the best in me. Don't ever change."
Saturday, November 23, 2013
You Don't Even Know
"Hi, how are you? I forgot to ask you something the other day; can I have your number?" is the only sentence I want to say to you right now.
I lost my gut whenever you're here.
I am either happy and sad.
You wanna know why?
I'm sad that I lost everything I practiced.
But I'm happy because it means I like you a lot.
A lot.
Like, a lot a lot.
I don't normally losing words in front of a guy because for me it's like losing my self-esteem.
And I hate that feeling.
So twice, huh?
Twice and all I know are your first name, where you live, your job, the name of your dog, and your origin.
Other than those, nothing.
NO-THING.
And the worst part is I don't know when you will be here again.
It's too cliche, but I think I miss you.
I don't even have anything to miss about you.
I mean, we talked. But just twice or three times.
I'm not supposed to miss you, don't I?
See these walls? I've built them. Why? To avoid getting hurt.
But then there's this day, and there you go.
Tearing my walls down. Slowly and steady.
And you don't even know.
Saturday, May 4, 2013
That Invisible Wall is Always There
I am sitting here all night thinking about what am I going to do.
Seriously, I am stuck.
Don't know where to move, what to do, what to say. I don't even know what I'm thinking of right now.
"Oh no, you know so damn well what are you thinking about!" said my brain.
"It's just a thought, though. What am I supposed to wrote? That? Don't think so." I replied.
"Come on! This is not going to be the first time you write about your complicated life and whining about it. Relax. No one gives a shit anyway."
"Shut up!"
I have to face the fact that I already promised my mom that I will graduate on time while I know, it's impossible.
That's life. You wish for one thing and one thing only, and suddenly you don't even want to try to make your wish come true.
What stressed me out? My mom called me everyday around 3 times per day. Even at 12 am. Seriously?
She didn't even let me sleep. I ruined my life by messing my biological hours up, and now when I am still trying to fix it, she ruined it with one phone call.
Me and my mom, we have this one relationship we couldn't fix. No matter what I do, I am always wrong. No matter what I do, I am afraid of her. Sometimes I am afraid that I will be more afraid of her than of God. I ignored phone calls from her just because I didn't want to lie. I didn't want to make stories up. I am tired. Like, really tired.
Don't get me wrong. My mom is an amazing woman. She has this work ethic, she loves her children. But with me, it's like there's an invisible wall between us that I couldn't cross. Neither one of us could.
It's been like this since I was a kid. Now that my dad's gone, it gets even worse. I'm trying to fix it, but I just can't. That makes me sad but I think that's the best.
You know when you want your mom to support you everytime? I want the same thing. But how come she can support me if I get scared if she's in the same town with me? I mean, she's here for a couple days but it feels like forever. I do nothing wrong but I am still scared.
I am sad I never had that mom-daughter time with my mom. I probably never will.
She supports me financially and mentally. But still, that invisible wall is always there. Always.
Seriously, I am stuck.
Don't know where to move, what to do, what to say. I don't even know what I'm thinking of right now.
"Oh no, you know so damn well what are you thinking about!" said my brain.
"It's just a thought, though. What am I supposed to wrote? That? Don't think so." I replied.
"Come on! This is not going to be the first time you write about your complicated life and whining about it. Relax. No one gives a shit anyway."
"Shut up!"
I have to face the fact that I already promised my mom that I will graduate on time while I know, it's impossible.
That's life. You wish for one thing and one thing only, and suddenly you don't even want to try to make your wish come true.
What stressed me out? My mom called me everyday around 3 times per day. Even at 12 am. Seriously?
She didn't even let me sleep. I ruined my life by messing my biological hours up, and now when I am still trying to fix it, she ruined it with one phone call.
Me and my mom, we have this one relationship we couldn't fix. No matter what I do, I am always wrong. No matter what I do, I am afraid of her. Sometimes I am afraid that I will be more afraid of her than of God. I ignored phone calls from her just because I didn't want to lie. I didn't want to make stories up. I am tired. Like, really tired.
Don't get me wrong. My mom is an amazing woman. She has this work ethic, she loves her children. But with me, it's like there's an invisible wall between us that I couldn't cross. Neither one of us could.
It's been like this since I was a kid. Now that my dad's gone, it gets even worse. I'm trying to fix it, but I just can't. That makes me sad but I think that's the best.
You know when you want your mom to support you everytime? I want the same thing. But how come she can support me if I get scared if she's in the same town with me? I mean, she's here for a couple days but it feels like forever. I do nothing wrong but I am still scared.
I am sad I never had that mom-daughter time with my mom. I probably never will.
She supports me financially and mentally. But still, that invisible wall is always there. Always.
Monday, April 29, 2013
The Edge of April
Woo Hoo!
Monday is near.
LOL.
Hi, readers! Long time no see. It's around 27 days.
How you doin'? Y'all good? Yeah, me too.
First of all, thank you for keep reading my crap.
I am considering changing this domain into fissheal.com. Actually, I was thinking about creating a new one, but this one is so historical I want to keep it updated. LOL.
These days I've been addicted to Stand Up Comedy. I've been watching Wanda Sykes and Kevin Hart. I love black stand up comedian. They're hilarious!
My favorite part from Wanda is when she performed at the 2009 Correspondents' Dinner:
Next, job and school. Both aren't really going that well now.
I'm so stressed out I can't even think. I mean, when people ask me about work or school, I don't even wanna talk about it. It set me off. Like, seriously.
And then, here comes the love life.
So, have I told you about Maté? Well, I lost my feeling for him. I mean, it's that's fast because I don't even know who he is. That's stupid. That's the stupidest thing ever. Turned out he's different. We met already and the real him isn't as funny as him when he talked to me via BBM. That sucks. Pineapples.
But then, as I told you before, I met this Denny guy. He's nice. I think he has great patience when it comes to talkative person like me. LOL. He answered almost everything I asked. Even when he was in a bad mood. It's crazy. I had a crush on him but then, it's all coming back to our faiths. We're not in the same religion and that's a big deal. I always said to anyone I've had a crush on:
Last but not least, IRON MAN 3 IS OUT, BABY!
I haven't seen it. I was planning on wearing a t-shirt that has arc reactor on it to watch this movie that I've been waiting since 2008!
What makes me sad is the rumor that this is probably the last movie when RDJ will starred as Tony Stark. Well, I didn't think I'm going to raise my kids in the world where RDJ isn't Iron Man.
I think that's all from now.
GO WATCH WANDA. GO WATCH KEVIN. GO WATCH IRON MAN 3.
Love you! :*
Monday is near.
LOL.
Hi, readers! Long time no see. It's around 27 days.
How you doin'? Y'all good? Yeah, me too.
First of all, thank you for keep reading my crap.
I am considering changing this domain into fissheal.com. Actually, I was thinking about creating a new one, but this one is so historical I want to keep it updated. LOL.
These days I've been addicted to Stand Up Comedy. I've been watching Wanda Sykes and Kevin Hart. I love black stand up comedian. They're hilarious!
My favorite part from Wanda is when she performed at the 2009 Correspondents' Dinner:
I'm proud to say The First Black President. I know you're biracial, but The First Black President. That's unless you screw up. Then it's gonna be 'What's up with the half white guy?' - Wanda Sykes.And my favorite part from Kevin is from his "I'm a Grown Little Man":
You ever seen them real big dudes, real huge, no neck, just being in the gym working out? I saw him one day and I just got mad and I said 'Dude why are you still here? That's it! you won!' - Kevin Hart.You should try watch them. They really have that capability to turn your mood from -1 Million to +9 Billion.
Next, job and school. Both aren't really going that well now.
I'm so stressed out I can't even think. I mean, when people ask me about work or school, I don't even wanna talk about it. It set me off. Like, seriously.
And then, here comes the love life.
So, have I told you about Maté? Well, I lost my feeling for him. I mean, it's that's fast because I don't even know who he is. That's stupid. That's the stupidest thing ever. Turned out he's different. We met already and the real him isn't as funny as him when he talked to me via BBM. That sucks. Pineapples.
But then, as I told you before, I met this Denny guy. He's nice. I think he has great patience when it comes to talkative person like me. LOL. He answered almost everything I asked. Even when he was in a bad mood. It's crazy. I had a crush on him but then, it's all coming back to our faiths. We're not in the same religion and that's a big deal. I always said to anyone I've had a crush on:
If I ever leave God for you; if I ever change my religion because of you, do not marry me. Don't even have a relationship with me. Because if it's God that I left now, then next, it could be you. - Fissheal M.So, yeah, it didn't work again. But I didn't regret it. He's mature enough to not change after I said such things. Great man.
Last but not least, IRON MAN 3 IS OUT, BABY!
I haven't seen it. I was planning on wearing a t-shirt that has arc reactor on it to watch this movie that I've been waiting since 2008!
What makes me sad is the rumor that this is probably the last movie when RDJ will starred as Tony Stark. Well, I didn't think I'm going to raise my kids in the world where RDJ isn't Iron Man.
I think that's all from now.
GO WATCH WANDA. GO WATCH KEVIN. GO WATCH IRON MAN 3.
Love you! :*
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Expired Domain
LOL. yeah. this is going to be a short post.
now justlikefie.com is no longer exist. :)
WELCOME BACK TO JUSTLIKEFIE.BLOGSPOT.COM
well, that looks better. :)
now justlikefie.com is no longer exist. :)
WELCOME BACK TO JUSTLIKEFIE.BLOGSPOT.COM
well, that looks better. :)
Saturday, March 30, 2013
HOLLA!
that's the only Spanish word I know.
First of all, today's Good Friday. :)
Happy Good Friday to all of you who celebrating.
sooooooo, how are you? hope you're doing fine, readers. :)
I'm fine here. better, at least.
I got things to keep me busy, I got roof over my head, I got food, and I got you.
It's 1:34 am in the morning, GMT +07:00 and I am sleepy.
YAY! Finally. I've been waiting for this moment when I am about to hit the bed earlier.
Maybe it's because I'm tired. I ran this morning, then I cleaned up my room.
It's back to the normal day.
Well, anyway, I already asked Pak To (he's the man who keeps my dorm safe) if I could have a ferret or not.
Turned out, he said it's okay. As long as I keep it clean. :)
YAY (again)!
Now all I have to do is get one. I need some time to think but I think I'm getting there.
I don't have much story to tell, actually.
Oh, remember Maté? Yeah, the guy I liked. The one who introduced me to ferrets.
We're currently keeping our distance. No, I am the one who keeps the distance between us.
This is gonna sound silly, but it's his tweet that made me realized that we're never worked out.
He will never ever like me and everything's just impossible.
So, I back off. :)
I met another guy though. His name is Denny. He came with great personality.
But I think, he will be a good friend. :) Yes. Just friend. :)
I'm not liking anyone currently. I'm having a good time enjoying my life and my job.
I love meeting new people. This month, I got Maté, Denny, Raka, Resta, Pandi, and many others.
This time, I remembered Adit (he's my dorm mate's boyfriend) told me once:
Somehow, these three keep moving around in my head, try to remind me that these are probably the only things I should do.
Now, it works out. I met people. I not planning on changing and I am still trying to get closer to God.
Thank you for the time you took to read this.
I'll see you soon, then. :)
LOVE YOU, READERS! :*
PS: It wasn't "Civet" it was "Ferret" :)
First of all, today's Good Friday. :)
Happy Good Friday to all of you who celebrating.
sooooooo, how are you? hope you're doing fine, readers. :)
I'm fine here. better, at least.
I got things to keep me busy, I got roof over my head, I got food, and I got you.
It's 1:34 am in the morning, GMT +07:00 and I am sleepy.
YAY! Finally. I've been waiting for this moment when I am about to hit the bed earlier.
Maybe it's because I'm tired. I ran this morning, then I cleaned up my room.
It's back to the normal day.
Well, anyway, I already asked Pak To (he's the man who keeps my dorm safe) if I could have a ferret or not.
Turned out, he said it's okay. As long as I keep it clean. :)
YAY (again)!
Now all I have to do is get one. I need some time to think but I think I'm getting there.
I don't have much story to tell, actually.
Oh, remember Maté? Yeah, the guy I liked. The one who introduced me to ferrets.
We're currently keeping our distance. No, I am the one who keeps the distance between us.
This is gonna sound silly, but it's his tweet that made me realized that we're never worked out.
He will never ever like me and everything's just impossible.
So, I back off. :)
I met another guy though. His name is Denny. He came with great personality.
But I think, he will be a good friend. :) Yes. Just friend. :)
I'm not liking anyone currently. I'm having a good time enjoying my life and my job.
I love meeting new people. This month, I got Maté, Denny, Raka, Resta, Pandi, and many others.
This time, I remembered Adit (he's my dorm mate's boyfriend) told me once:
3 things you should remember and do are:
1. Get closer with God.
2. Expand your network and friendship. Meet new people and have fun.
3. Be yourself.
Somehow, these three keep moving around in my head, try to remind me that these are probably the only things I should do.
Now, it works out. I met people. I not planning on changing and I am still trying to get closer to God.
Thank you for the time you took to read this.
I'll see you soon, then. :)
LOVE YOU, READERS! :*
PS: It wasn't "Civet" it was "Ferret" :)
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Meet The Ferrets
lol. I don't usually post photos right away, but I feel sooo great I want to post them!
so here's the story...
a week ago, I met a guy named Maté online.
we actually met by accident when we were commenting on Fajar's status.
so, cut story short, he's that kind of guy who has that capability to make me laugh.
like, seriously, laugh out loud.
in the middle of the night.
and early in the morning.
like, every time.
turned out, (I think) I like him. so then I learned everything I should know about him.
oh, and the most important thing that amazed me is: He loves ferret (or civet cat or whatever you call them)!!!
and I know, from the moment he sent me pictures of his 'children', I fell in love with ferret too. :)
and last night, Saturday, 23rd March 2013, I met a ferret!
so it was an earth hour event in Depok, Indonesia and they invited some communities and KasKus is one of them.
KasKus is the largest indonesian community so far. It's a forum with 4 million members. Including me.
In the other side, there's MULDOK. I guess it's "Musang (ferret in bahasa) Lovers Depok". CMIIW.
cut story short, I interested in one of the ferret and want to take picture with it.
It is friendly. It loves kissing and biting and kissing again and (finally) shitting on me. LOL.
This is the ferret I'm talking about.
And this is right after she shitted on me. lol.
I did pose when this picture was taken, but I don't understand why I made this face after.
At least, my face looks slimmer.
See the yellow spot on my shoulder? That's the poop. LOL.
Ferret's poop didn't smell bad. It's just... sticky.
In the end, I am happy. I finally got something to tell Maté.
I met some people, again. I met a nice guy named Raka.
I met Susi and her friends.
I hugged some ferrets. I hugged two ferrets actually.
and I am simply happy. :)
that's all from now.
love you!
so here's the story...
a week ago, I met a guy named Maté online.
we actually met by accident when we were commenting on Fajar's status.
so, cut story short, he's that kind of guy who has that capability to make me laugh.
like, seriously, laugh out loud.
in the middle of the night.
and early in the morning.
like, every time.
turned out, (I think) I like him. so then I learned everything I should know about him.
oh, and the most important thing that amazed me is: He loves ferret (or civet cat or whatever you call them)!!!
and I know, from the moment he sent me pictures of his 'children', I fell in love with ferret too. :)
and last night, Saturday, 23rd March 2013, I met a ferret!
so it was an earth hour event in Depok, Indonesia and they invited some communities and KasKus is one of them.
KasKus is the largest indonesian community so far. It's a forum with 4 million members. Including me.
In the other side, there's MULDOK. I guess it's "Musang (ferret in bahasa) Lovers Depok". CMIIW.
cut story short, I interested in one of the ferret and want to take picture with it.
It is friendly. It loves kissing and biting and kissing again and (finally) shitting on me. LOL.
This is the ferret I'm talking about.
And this is right after she shitted on me. lol.
I did pose when this picture was taken, but I don't understand why I made this face after.
At least, my face looks slimmer.
See the yellow spot on my shoulder? That's the poop. LOL.
Ferret's poop didn't smell bad. It's just... sticky.
In the end, I am happy. I finally got something to tell Maté.
I met some people, again. I met a nice guy named Raka.
I met Susi and her friends.
I hugged some ferrets. I hugged two ferrets actually.
and I am simply happy. :)
that's all from now.
love you!
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Thank You, February. And Welcome, March!
This post supposed to be posted yesterday.
But IDK why, I think I just forgot.
I wrote anything I wanted to post here on notepad first.
So if I didn't remember, I'll just skip that post.
But not with this post. This one is so damn important!
Happy 1st of March!
today's a big day for people in the world because today's Justin Bieber's birthday.
for me, it's even bigger because today's c4's birthday!!!
Happy Birthday to c4.
yeah, we finally talk again and it makes me feel so good.
nah, I didn't expect to communicate. it's just, I want to fix my mistakes.
hi, c4. happy birthday!
wish you all the greatest thing in life.
ps: do not die before Iron Man 3.
-
hi, readers!
life's been good. :)
I am officially a trainee at the dream company I told you before.
I'm so excited. Thank you for pray for me. :)
And thank God for the job and thank God I have readers like you.
yeah I got e-mails these days and I am scared that I will failed. *Pray for me, please!*
my grades don't come up yet.
I am still nervous but I already tried to do the best I could.
now all I can do is pray.
-
oh, and remember the man I told you before? whose initial is A? yeah, things didn't work out very well between us two.
turned out he wasn't the man I want. he's cute as a boyfriend, but not mature enough to be considered as my other half.
beside, he got a girlfriend. lol. nah, even though he wasn't in a relationship, things still wouldn't work out.
-
I also want to take this time out to thank February.
I know it has only 28 days, but I felt like it was the longest month of the year.
Thank you for the ups and downs.
Thank you for taught me to trust my feelings.
Thank you for the love and heart break.
Thank you for the job, the friends, the experiences.
And thank you, for being the most amazing month of the year.
I thought you were gonna be the worst one, but turned out, I was dead wrong. :)
-
it's 5 o'clock in the morning now.
I am in the middle of making a decision whether to go back to sleep or not.
the thing is, I was planning on take a little run at 6 with my friend, Suci.
We'll see though, because I still got a task to do.
And I'm not so sure if she could wake up at 5:30. :))
I think that's everything for today.
thank you for the time you took to read this. :*
love ya, readers!
But IDK why, I think I just forgot.
I wrote anything I wanted to post here on notepad first.
So if I didn't remember, I'll just skip that post.
But not with this post. This one is so damn important!
Happy 1st of March!
today's a big day for people in the world because today's Justin Bieber's birthday.
for me, it's even bigger because today's c4's birthday!!!
Happy Birthday to c4.
yeah, we finally talk again and it makes me feel so good.
nah, I didn't expect to communicate. it's just, I want to fix my mistakes.
hi, c4. happy birthday!
wish you all the greatest thing in life.
ps: do not die before Iron Man 3.
-
hi, readers!
life's been good. :)
I am officially a trainee at the dream company I told you before.
I'm so excited. Thank you for pray for me. :)
And thank God for the job and thank God I have readers like you.
yeah I got e-mails these days and I am scared that I will failed. *Pray for me, please!*
my grades don't come up yet.
I am still nervous but I already tried to do the best I could.
now all I can do is pray.
-
oh, and remember the man I told you before? whose initial is A? yeah, things didn't work out very well between us two.
turned out he wasn't the man I want. he's cute as a boyfriend, but not mature enough to be considered as my other half.
beside, he got a girlfriend. lol. nah, even though he wasn't in a relationship, things still wouldn't work out.
-
I also want to take this time out to thank February.
I know it has only 28 days, but I felt like it was the longest month of the year.
Thank you for the ups and downs.
Thank you for taught me to trust my feelings.
Thank you for the love and heart break.
Thank you for the job, the friends, the experiences.
And thank you, for being the most amazing month of the year.
I thought you were gonna be the worst one, but turned out, I was dead wrong. :)
-
it's 5 o'clock in the morning now.
I am in the middle of making a decision whether to go back to sleep or not.
the thing is, I was planning on take a little run at 6 with my friend, Suci.
We'll see though, because I still got a task to do.
And I'm not so sure if she could wake up at 5:30. :))
I think that's everything for today.
thank you for the time you took to read this. :*
love ya, readers!
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Pull Myself Together
Hi readers!
How's life? I hope you're being treated well. ;)
So, after very very long cry-for-a-week phase, I'm done!
Yeah, I seriously want and have to manage my life again.
I can't cry forever, can I?
These days I've been busy with looking for a job. I already found one of one company that I really wanted to work to.
Currently, I'm still waiting for the good news. *Pray for me, please!*
Beside the good news from the dream company, I'm also waiting any good news from my grades. :D
Last year, I skipped so many classes and I know if I couldn't pass those tests, that's my fault.
But for the first time in my life I seriously study hard. So I hope it'll pay my hard work. Though I'm a little bit scared.
In the middle of my nervous break down, now I realize I can't hold on to someone else but God.
I'm not trying to be religious here, but I finally realize, He's the only man who will never leave me alone. :)
But then, I am still looking around for someone nice. Someone I can picture my future with. Someone who can be my best friend and lover all at once.
I found one, his initial is A, but I am not so sure if this will work or not.
I mean, I've wasted years trying to build strong relationships with men. I want to get married in 2015 actually. :)
I think God works mysteriously on that. :)
Talking about best friend, remember my Partner In Crime, Indra?
Nah, you don't remember. LOL.
So he's been dieting for the last.. I don't know.. a year and a half, I guess. And he's in a nice shape now.
That motivated me to do some diet too. I started eat less and workout more.
I'm not actually a big fan of workout, but it feels really good when you're sweating. :)
Now I'm running if I have the spare time or the mood to go out, but if I'm not in any mood to run, I'm weightlifting.
Yeah, I have 6lbs yellow barbels in my room. :p
My current weight now is 73kgs or 161lbs. And I need to lose 22 lbs more to my ideal weight.
That's a lot of number, isn't it?
Well, one day, I'll say "I believe I could, so I did" :)
What else?
Hmm.. I guess that's all for now.
Thank you for reading this.
And, remember to have fun readers. :) It won't hurt.
I'll see you soon then. :)
Love you. :*
How's life? I hope you're being treated well. ;)
So, after very very long cry-for-a-week phase, I'm done!
Yeah, I seriously want and have to manage my life again.
I can't cry forever, can I?
These days I've been busy with looking for a job. I already found one of one company that I really wanted to work to.
Currently, I'm still waiting for the good news. *Pray for me, please!*
Beside the good news from the dream company, I'm also waiting any good news from my grades. :D
Last year, I skipped so many classes and I know if I couldn't pass those tests, that's my fault.
But for the first time in my life I seriously study hard. So I hope it'll pay my hard work. Though I'm a little bit scared.
In the middle of my nervous break down, now I realize I can't hold on to someone else but God.
I'm not trying to be religious here, but I finally realize, He's the only man who will never leave me alone. :)
But then, I am still looking around for someone nice. Someone I can picture my future with. Someone who can be my best friend and lover all at once.
I found one, his initial is A, but I am not so sure if this will work or not.
I mean, I've wasted years trying to build strong relationships with men. I want to get married in 2015 actually. :)
I think God works mysteriously on that. :)
Talking about best friend, remember my Partner In Crime, Indra?
Nah, you don't remember. LOL.
So he's been dieting for the last.. I don't know.. a year and a half, I guess. And he's in a nice shape now.
That motivated me to do some diet too. I started eat less and workout more.
I'm not actually a big fan of workout, but it feels really good when you're sweating. :)
Now I'm running if I have the spare time or the mood to go out, but if I'm not in any mood to run, I'm weightlifting.
Yeah, I have 6lbs yellow barbels in my room. :p
My current weight now is 73kgs or 161lbs. And I need to lose 22 lbs more to my ideal weight.
That's a lot of number, isn't it?
Well, one day, I'll say "I believe I could, so I did" :)
What else?
Hmm.. I guess that's all for now.
Thank you for reading this.
And, remember to have fun readers. :) It won't hurt.
I'll see you soon then. :)
Love you. :*
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Karma does Exist
hi, readers. how are you? fine I hope. :)
so, yeah. I'm officially single (again).
and I'm still crying my eyes out 'til I fall asleep. I really hope this phase of break-ups will end as soon as possible.
no, I'm not the one who broke up with him. he is. and in my opinion, you can judge this story from our opinions.
let's begin.
***
according to him, I:
- am selfish.
- can't understand his feelings.
- am a liar. biggest liar on earth.
- spend too much money.
now, I got opinions to defense myself of course.
- yes I am selfish. but I got reason for that. he's the first person who ever be my bf in real life. mostly I am constantly in a LDR. maybe that took me by surprise that I was very... pampered by a man.
- yes. I can't understand his feelings. I understand that. I always wanted to see him. like every single day of the rest of my life. and I can't get out of this fact.
- yes. I lied. to several people. like my mom. I lied about his status (I told my mom he was my senior in college), I lied about his job (he's a security), I lied about everything to my mom. but he doesn't know my mom. he never met her before. he doesn't know what is my mom capable of. once I told her the truth, I think the most proper way to say this is: there's no forgiveness.
- I did spend to much money. I can't get out of this fact as well. But I'm learning. I'm learning how to save some money for me later. for my future. for, well, our (ex) future.
you know what? my ex boyfriend is a perfect guy. physically and mentally.
he's tall, handsome, tough, cute, patient, kind, awesome, cool, super nice, et cetera. but, there's one thing I don't like about him. he's a liar.
no no. I didn't accuse him. it's the truth.
***
here's the story.
I felt something changed about him since Dec 2012. And the first thing that came through my mind was: he's in love with somebody else.
No, I couldn't prove that. All I can do was hoping. Hoping that I couldn't be more wrong.
Then, I get back to my hometown for few weeks. When I came back, he did pick me up at the airport et cetera.
That made me happy of course because I thought he was changed.
Few weeks later, it was Tuesday, I remember the exact day, I called him. And the first word he said after he picked up the phone is "What?!"
I didn't get it. He changed all of the sudden.
He didn't want to talk to me for a couple weeks. Then we met. It was Feb 5th. He broke up with me but I said no. Because he couldn't tell me the right reason. Beside, I got more exams to do so I begged him to understand my position and not break up with me at least 'til I graduate.
I remember he said "OK" on some conditions:
- I can't call him when he's working.
- I tell my mom the truth.
I said "fine". And I never called him while he was working without asked him first.
On friday, Feb 8th, he didn't reply my texts, he didn't answer his phone. and I was like, "I know this time is coming".
But again, there's still one little hope inside of me that said: maybe he ran out of credits and his phone was in silent mode.
After 1 week, he didn't change. I decided to go find him. It was Valentine's Day. I actually had no idea about where he currently lives. I remember some clues though and I believe I could find him with all the intentions I got.
And I found his place but I couldn't find him. so I came back again the next day to talk to him. That night he was working so I knew I will find him.
I wasn't surprised when he said he got another gf. They got together since Feb 7th. so technically, yes, he lied to me.
He said he was planning on getting married next year. I couldn't stop crying.
He started compared me with her. How good she is, how she didn't lie to her mom. and my heart was screaming "WE DIDN'T HAVE THE SAME MOM!".
It broke my heart into pieces. Matter of fact, I think I can't fall in love again.
People said I'm stupid for letting him hurt me like that, for still having a little hope, and for keep loving him.
But I'm not that kind of girl who easily hate people. Yes, he messed up. But people did too. I did too.
I know I probably will never be with him ever again, but I prayed really hard so that God would listen to me and granted my wishes.
***
You know what, readers? I think this is Karma. this is exactly what happened in 2010. The difference is, c4 didn't say anything to me for weeks. I thought he hated me already.
So, after I remember that, I wrote an e-mail to c4, my ex, to apologize if it hurts him when I left. Because now I'm hurting like real bad. Like I want to stop crying but I can't.
I thought that was exactly what happened to him that's why I apologize. I don't want anybody to hate me or curse me. I just want to have a happy life. with no hard feelings. no heart broken..
So, yeah, I want to take this time up to thank Oktavianus for letting me know how it feels like to be loved.
And apologize to c4 for everything that I've done. I have no idea, this would turned out this bad.
***
Thanks for reading, readers.
I hope your love life isn't as complicated as mine.
Quote for the day: "I made a promise never to settle why didn't I keep it?" - Stacey Orricco
well, it's actually her whole 'I'm Not Missing You' is the quote of the day.
download that song and listen to it.
Bye readers.
I love you.
so, yeah. I'm officially single (again).
and I'm still crying my eyes out 'til I fall asleep. I really hope this phase of break-ups will end as soon as possible.
no, I'm not the one who broke up with him. he is. and in my opinion, you can judge this story from our opinions.
let's begin.
***
according to him, I:
- am selfish.
- can't understand his feelings.
- am a liar. biggest liar on earth.
- spend too much money.
now, I got opinions to defense myself of course.
- yes I am selfish. but I got reason for that. he's the first person who ever be my bf in real life. mostly I am constantly in a LDR. maybe that took me by surprise that I was very... pampered by a man.
- yes. I can't understand his feelings. I understand that. I always wanted to see him. like every single day of the rest of my life. and I can't get out of this fact.
- yes. I lied. to several people. like my mom. I lied about his status (I told my mom he was my senior in college), I lied about his job (he's a security), I lied about everything to my mom. but he doesn't know my mom. he never met her before. he doesn't know what is my mom capable of. once I told her the truth, I think the most proper way to say this is: there's no forgiveness.
- I did spend to much money. I can't get out of this fact as well. But I'm learning. I'm learning how to save some money for me later. for my future. for, well, our (ex) future.
you know what? my ex boyfriend is a perfect guy. physically and mentally.
he's tall, handsome, tough, cute, patient, kind, awesome, cool, super nice, et cetera. but, there's one thing I don't like about him. he's a liar.
no no. I didn't accuse him. it's the truth.
***
here's the story.
I felt something changed about him since Dec 2012. And the first thing that came through my mind was: he's in love with somebody else.
No, I couldn't prove that. All I can do was hoping. Hoping that I couldn't be more wrong.
Then, I get back to my hometown for few weeks. When I came back, he did pick me up at the airport et cetera.
That made me happy of course because I thought he was changed.
Few weeks later, it was Tuesday, I remember the exact day, I called him. And the first word he said after he picked up the phone is "What?!"
I didn't get it. He changed all of the sudden.
He didn't want to talk to me for a couple weeks. Then we met. It was Feb 5th. He broke up with me but I said no. Because he couldn't tell me the right reason. Beside, I got more exams to do so I begged him to understand my position and not break up with me at least 'til I graduate.
I remember he said "OK" on some conditions:
- I can't call him when he's working.
- I tell my mom the truth.
I said "fine". And I never called him while he was working without asked him first.
On friday, Feb 8th, he didn't reply my texts, he didn't answer his phone. and I was like, "I know this time is coming".
But again, there's still one little hope inside of me that said: maybe he ran out of credits and his phone was in silent mode.
After 1 week, he didn't change. I decided to go find him. It was Valentine's Day. I actually had no idea about where he currently lives. I remember some clues though and I believe I could find him with all the intentions I got.
And I found his place but I couldn't find him. so I came back again the next day to talk to him. That night he was working so I knew I will find him.
I wasn't surprised when he said he got another gf. They got together since Feb 7th. so technically, yes, he lied to me.
He said he was planning on getting married next year. I couldn't stop crying.
He started compared me with her. How good she is, how she didn't lie to her mom. and my heart was screaming "WE DIDN'T HAVE THE SAME MOM!".
It broke my heart into pieces. Matter of fact, I think I can't fall in love again.
People said I'm stupid for letting him hurt me like that, for still having a little hope, and for keep loving him.
But I'm not that kind of girl who easily hate people. Yes, he messed up. But people did too. I did too.
I know I probably will never be with him ever again, but I prayed really hard so that God would listen to me and granted my wishes.
***
You know what, readers? I think this is Karma. this is exactly what happened in 2010. The difference is, c4 didn't say anything to me for weeks. I thought he hated me already.
So, after I remember that, I wrote an e-mail to c4, my ex, to apologize if it hurts him when I left. Because now I'm hurting like real bad. Like I want to stop crying but I can't.
I thought that was exactly what happened to him that's why I apologize. I don't want anybody to hate me or curse me. I just want to have a happy life. with no hard feelings. no heart broken..
So, yeah, I want to take this time up to thank Oktavianus for letting me know how it feels like to be loved.
And apologize to c4 for everything that I've done. I have no idea, this would turned out this bad.
***
Thanks for reading, readers.
I hope your love life isn't as complicated as mine.
Quote for the day: "I made a promise never to settle why didn't I keep it?" - Stacey Orricco
well, it's actually her whole 'I'm Not Missing You' is the quote of the day.
download that song and listen to it.
Bye readers.
I love you.
Friday, December 21, 2012
Colon Aposthrope Parentheses
This is my fault.
You can call this karma because I think it is what karma is.
It's a deja vu. It happened to me before but it wasn't this bad.
Life's pretty fucked up now.
Mine. Not yours.
Well, maybe yours too. But I think mine's worse yours.
It was all started from my old job. Bad. Really bad. Like, low rate payment, stupid people to work with, a lot of jobs, moody boss, etc. Yes. I can make fun of people here. It's my blog. Fuck manner.
Then, stop working screw my financial life pretty bad too. I need to stop buying things I like and control my hunger. I can handle that. Well, not really.
Then, it affected my college life. Total mess. Sometimes I skipped class because I didn't feel like going. But sometimes I skipped class because I couldn't go.
Beside, I have no friend in that class. Oh, I have one. Her name is Debby. She's nice to me. But still, I can't always expect her to help me.
So, then, it affects my personal life.
First, my mom keep asking me when will I graduate. And I can't tell her the truth because she probably would kill me. Or kick me from the family. Total embarrassment. It's not that I'm stupid (or maybe I am), but it's more that I am... improvident (?).
Second, my boyfriend (or soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend) wants me to tell the truth to my mom because he's tired of running. He said if I didn't tell her the truth, he would break up with me. Well, he would anyway.
So yeah. It's pretty bad. Plus, my mom keeps telling me to go back home. I think I will tell her something to postponed my homecoming. I can't tell the truth.
These days I'm facing my mid test. And for the first time in my life. I am seriously studying. Hard. Super hard. Because memorizing is the second hardest thing in the world (after Chemistry of course) and all the subjects that being test this semester need to be memorized. So I studied. Super hard.
Then yesterday came up. I fought with my boyfriend. And it stressed me out. I can't think and I can't memorize anything. So you can imagine hoe it feels like to get 10 questions with nothing stuck on your head. And for the first time in my life. I felt like crying because I can answer NONE!
When the exam was over, I cried.
Now I am crying again. What a crybaby I am! I've been trying to distract my head with Polyvore (I have no exam until Dec 26th) but I keep crying over and over and over again.
So then, I think I should write. A very long time post on my blog. Because I can't handle this anymore.
Here's the story of why I'm crying.
It was last month. I already fell in love with him. And I know it's not going to be good because I turned into a monster when I fell in love.
And I did. I have bad temper. Everyone knew that. I am a jealous person. If I am jealous already, all you can do is either tell her that I'm jealous and tell her to stay the fuck out or I'll tell her myself.
Well, this story isn't about me being jealous though. So, let's skip that.
So it was last month. We were chatting on BlackBerry Messenger and at that moment, as long as I can remember, I wasn't in a bad mood.
I forgot what was we talking about and I don't keep history. So, I remember he told me "We need to talk. But not here. I am a man so not here.".
I know this type of words. But then again, it means two things: first, he's going to propose, second, he's going to break up.
And I was like "OK".
Four days after that chat, we met and talk. He told me this: "Last year mom (his mom) asked me if I'm serious with you. Because if I don't then she had someone to be introduced to me." Nah. I didn't yell. It was silence. I can't even remember making any sound. It shocked me. Why? 1. He didn't think he's serious or I'm serious. 2. He kept it from me for one year. ONE GODDAMN YEAR.
Oh yeah, if he told me that earlier I wouldn't be this broken because I probably had no feelings for him at that moment.
So I couldn't speak. I couldn't cry as well. I just sat there in silence. I don't want to break up. Really. I'm tired of starting over a relationship. And I love him.
But I already broke. Into pieces. You know that feeling when you are in a relationship with someone but deep inside you know it'll going to be over one day? Yeah, me too. This kind of shit happened to me before. But it wasn't this bad.
Today, I'm still begging him to talk to his mom. I mean, I can talk to her if I want to. But it's his decision. If he wouldn't do it and wouldn't let me do it, then he's the one who didn't love me anymore. It's him and not his mom.
Call me stupid but relationship really makes you do things you never thought you'd do. Begging, crying over a human (yeah, that's stupid unless he/she's dead), writing long post on blog and etc. But seriously, all my life people (esp. men) always treated me like shit. If that's going to happen again, I think I'm gonna be fine because I've got used to it.
Time like this, I really need my girl friends and my best friend in Taiwan. Well, I never really talk to him directly and cry on his shoulder but I think a little hang out and laugh would do. My girls are so busy. We're not living close to each other anymore. And I admit it I'm the one who make them hate me. But trust me, if I could turn back time, I would do anything to fix it. It's just... I can't afford crying alone... again.
You can call this karma because I think it is what karma is.
It's a deja vu. It happened to me before but it wasn't this bad.
Life's pretty fucked up now.
Mine. Not yours.
Well, maybe yours too. But I think mine's worse yours.
It was all started from my old job. Bad. Really bad. Like, low rate payment, stupid people to work with, a lot of jobs, moody boss, etc. Yes. I can make fun of people here. It's my blog. Fuck manner.
Then, stop working screw my financial life pretty bad too. I need to stop buying things I like and control my hunger. I can handle that. Well, not really.
Then, it affected my college life. Total mess. Sometimes I skipped class because I didn't feel like going. But sometimes I skipped class because I couldn't go.
Beside, I have no friend in that class. Oh, I have one. Her name is Debby. She's nice to me. But still, I can't always expect her to help me.
So, then, it affects my personal life.
First, my mom keep asking me when will I graduate. And I can't tell her the truth because she probably would kill me. Or kick me from the family. Total embarrassment. It's not that I'm stupid (or maybe I am), but it's more that I am... improvident (?).
Second, my boyfriend (or soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend) wants me to tell the truth to my mom because he's tired of running. He said if I didn't tell her the truth, he would break up with me. Well, he would anyway.
So yeah. It's pretty bad. Plus, my mom keeps telling me to go back home. I think I will tell her something to postponed my homecoming. I can't tell the truth.
These days I'm facing my mid test. And for the first time in my life. I am seriously studying. Hard. Super hard. Because memorizing is the second hardest thing in the world (after Chemistry of course) and all the subjects that being test this semester need to be memorized. So I studied. Super hard.
Then yesterday came up. I fought with my boyfriend. And it stressed me out. I can't think and I can't memorize anything. So you can imagine hoe it feels like to get 10 questions with nothing stuck on your head. And for the first time in my life. I felt like crying because I can answer NONE!
When the exam was over, I cried.
Now I am crying again. What a crybaby I am! I've been trying to distract my head with Polyvore (I have no exam until Dec 26th) but I keep crying over and over and over again.
So then, I think I should write. A very long time post on my blog. Because I can't handle this anymore.
Here's the story of why I'm crying.
It was last month. I already fell in love with him. And I know it's not going to be good because I turned into a monster when I fell in love.
And I did. I have bad temper. Everyone knew that. I am a jealous person. If I am jealous already, all you can do is either tell her that I'm jealous and tell her to stay the fuck out or I'll tell her myself.
Well, this story isn't about me being jealous though. So, let's skip that.
So it was last month. We were chatting on BlackBerry Messenger and at that moment, as long as I can remember, I wasn't in a bad mood.
I forgot what was we talking about and I don't keep history. So, I remember he told me "We need to talk. But not here. I am a man so not here.".
I know this type of words. But then again, it means two things: first, he's going to propose, second, he's going to break up.
And I was like "OK".
Four days after that chat, we met and talk. He told me this: "Last year mom (his mom) asked me if I'm serious with you. Because if I don't then she had someone to be introduced to me." Nah. I didn't yell. It was silence. I can't even remember making any sound. It shocked me. Why? 1. He didn't think he's serious or I'm serious. 2. He kept it from me for one year. ONE GODDAMN YEAR.
Oh yeah, if he told me that earlier I wouldn't be this broken because I probably had no feelings for him at that moment.
So I couldn't speak. I couldn't cry as well. I just sat there in silence. I don't want to break up. Really. I'm tired of starting over a relationship. And I love him.
But I already broke. Into pieces. You know that feeling when you are in a relationship with someone but deep inside you know it'll going to be over one day? Yeah, me too. This kind of shit happened to me before. But it wasn't this bad.
Today, I'm still begging him to talk to his mom. I mean, I can talk to her if I want to. But it's his decision. If he wouldn't do it and wouldn't let me do it, then he's the one who didn't love me anymore. It's him and not his mom.
Call me stupid but relationship really makes you do things you never thought you'd do. Begging, crying over a human (yeah, that's stupid unless he/she's dead), writing long post on blog and etc. But seriously, all my life people (esp. men) always treated me like shit. If that's going to happen again, I think I'm gonna be fine because I've got used to it.
Time like this, I really need my girl friends and my best friend in Taiwan. Well, I never really talk to him directly and cry on his shoulder but I think a little hang out and laugh would do. My girls are so busy. We're not living close to each other anymore. And I admit it I'm the one who make them hate me. But trust me, if I could turn back time, I would do anything to fix it. It's just... I can't afford crying alone... again.
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Short Review: Total Recall
I was watching Total Recall earlier. It was pretty good.
I love the storyline and graphics. Love the effects as well.
One scene that catch my thought was when Harry (Bokeem Woodbine)showed up and tried to made Doug/Hauser (Colin Farrell) believes that it was his dream, that he was still in the Rekall and that was just his memory. His dream.
Well, real or not, you need to watch this movie to find out.
7/10 from me. ;)
Colin Ferrell in Rekall
Colin Ferrell and Jessica Biel
(congrats to Mrs. Timberlake, anyway!)
Kate Beckinsale
Watch it and love it. ;)
I love the storyline and graphics. Love the effects as well.
One scene that catch my thought was when Harry (Bokeem Woodbine)showed up and tried to made Doug/Hauser (Colin Farrell) believes that it was his dream, that he was still in the Rekall and that was just his memory. His dream.
Well, real or not, you need to watch this movie to find out.
7/10 from me. ;)
(congrats to Mrs. Timberlake, anyway!)
Watch it and love it. ;)
Thursday, December 6, 2012
#1
It was 4 am and he couldn't sleep
Luke, at that time, was staying at Hotel Yllen Eiffel - after his number one reason why he came to Paris is cancelled, in Rue de Vaugirard. It's June 8th and he still had 8 more days there. Second day, and bored as hell.
Four best friends were seen in Roscoe Turner Airport, Corinth, Mississipi. Grace, Holly, Miranda, and Kate were excited about Grace's bachelorette party. She was getting married next week. So she bought - well, literally her fiance is the one who bought them, her girlfriends tickets to Paris to celebrate.
Holly didn't plan on going with the girls. First of all, she was so busy. Second of all, she was 34 and Grace was just... 27 and getting married with a rich prince charming who bought them tickets to Paris just for a bachelorette party. Holly was pretty exhausted. She had no idea, what was going to happen in Paris...
Luke, at that time, was staying at Hotel Yllen Eiffel - after his number one reason why he came to Paris is cancelled, in Rue de Vaugirard. It's June 8th and he still had 8 more days there. Second day, and bored as hell.
Four best friends were seen in Roscoe Turner Airport, Corinth, Mississipi. Grace, Holly, Miranda, and Kate were excited about Grace's bachelorette party. She was getting married next week. So she bought - well, literally her fiance is the one who bought them, her girlfriends tickets to Paris to celebrate.
Holly didn't plan on going with the girls. First of all, she was so busy. Second of all, she was 34 and Grace was just... 27 and getting married with a rich prince charming who bought them tickets to Paris just for a bachelorette party. Holly was pretty exhausted. She had no idea, what was going to happen in Paris...
to be continued
yeah. seriously.
Friday, November 23, 2012
Officially Shaved!
This is not going to be a long post.
Well, I'm not that bald but my hair is shorter enough to be called "shaved".
Below are the photos.
And I am pretty sure that I'm looking good. =))=))
I'll see you guys later.
Love you!
Well, I'm not that bald but my hair is shorter enough to be called "shaved".
Below are the photos.
And I am pretty sure that I'm looking good. =))=))
I'll see you guys later.
Love you!
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
HEY YOU!
Play this before you continue reading.
Time goes by so fast.
It's amazing what time can do, isn't it?
I used to be so hopeless and melancholy until then you stopped by and brought me bliss.
I am happier. You know it's true and I can't defy it.
But I have problems with speaking. That's why I prefer to write.
You know my story so you know it's simpler for me.
I can't tell many things when we were chatting.
I don't want to be too confident even though sometimes you gave me huge expectation about what we would be in the next years.
Friendship is what we have now and I
Still, I don't want to be with you. I don't deserve you.
Look at me. How bad I am. How mess my world is. How untidy I am.
I always feel like asking you this question: Do you really want to be with me?
I know you will say "yes" as a friend. But what if it's about something else?
Something that you know will never change between me and you?
Yes it will not change. Ever.
I might be with someone else at this moment but I can't get you off of my mind. Don't ask me why because I don't know.
After you read this, please, don't stop being my friend and partner in crime.
Just because I still have that old feeling, doesn't mean I can't be professional enough when I am with you.
I was planning to keep this feeling forever, actually. Because, I don't want our friendship to be over.
It's precious, you know.
So, I will always be your best friend. I will always be your partner in crime.
I will always be the person you can always call at 2 or 3 am in the morning.
I will always be your listener.
Yeah.
I think that's all I want to tell you.
Whoa, it's been forever since I wrote long stupid things like this.
But trust me, I can't speak it all to you.
Thanks for being the best one.
And please do not change just because this stupid post.
I'll see you soon, then.
:-)/\:-)
Saturday, June 2, 2012
Sistem Informasi Geografis - Quiz
1. Apa yang dimaksud dengan SIG atau GIS? Tuangkan jawaban anda sesuai dgn yg anda pahami?
Suatu komponen yang terdiri dari perangkat keras, perangkat lunak, data geografis dan sumberdaya manusia yang bekerja bersama secara efektif untuk memasukan, menyimpan, memperbaiki, memperbaharui, mengelola, memanipulasi, mengintegrasikan, menganalisa dan menampilkan data dalam suatu informasi berbasis geografis.
2. Karakteristik apa saja ygmembedakan antara SIG dgn sistem informasi pd umumnya?
Karakteristik Sistem Informasi Geografi dapat meliputi beberapa hal berikut :
a. Sistem Informasi Geografi merupakan suatu sistem hasil pengembangan perangkat keras dan perangkat lunak untuk tujuan pemetaan, sehingga fakta wilayah dapat disajikan dalam satu sistem berbasis komputer.
b. Dalam Sistem Informasi Geografi melibatkan tidak hanya satu segi namun banyak segi yaitu : ahli geografi, informatika dan komputer, serta aplikasi terkait.
c. Permasalahan dalam pengembangan Sistem Informasi Geografi meliputi: cakupan, kualitas dan standar data, struktur, model dan visualisasi data, koordinasi kelembagaan dan etika, pendidikan, expert system dan decision support system serta penerapannya
d. Perbedaannya dengan Sistem Informasi lainnya yaitu terletah pada data yang dikaitkan dengan letak geografis, dan terdiri dari data tekstual maupun grafik.
e. Sistem Informasi Geografi dimanfaatkan bukan hanya sekedar merupakan pengubahan peta konvensional (tradisional) ke bentuk peta dijital untuk kemudian disajikan (dicetak / diperbanyak) kembali
f. Kemampuan pada Sistem Informasi Geografi adalah mampu mengumpulkan, menyimpan, mentransformasikan, menampilkan, memanipulasi, memadukan dan menganalisis data spasial dari fenomena geografis suatu wilayah
g. Selain itu Sistem Informasi Geografi juga mampu menyimpan data dasar yang dibutuhkan untuk penyelesaian suatu masalah.
3. Sebutkan komponen” yg membentuk SIG dan jlskn masing” !
Perangkat Keras
Perangkat Lunak
Data dan Informasi Geografi (Data Spasial & Non-Spasial)
Manajemen
User
Metode
PS: Penjelasannya karang sendiri aja ya. :D
4. Apakah keunggulan pemanfaatan teknologi SIG secara umum?
Terdapat beberapa manfaat penggunaan SIG terhadap beberapa bidang ilmu :
a. Inventarisasi Sumber Daya Alam
Melalui penerapan GIS dapat diidentifikasi tentang potensi-potensi alam yang tersebar di suatu wilayah. Identifikasi ini akan memudahkan untuk pengelolaan sumber alam untuk kepentingan orang banyak.
b. Disaster Management
Aplikasi SIG dapat digunakan untuk melakukan pengelolaan pemulihan suatu kawasan pasca bencana. Misalnya, setelah tsunami yang menerjang Aceh dan Nias, Badan Rehabilitasi - Rekonstruksi Aceh - Nias (BRR Aceh-Nias) menggunakan GIS untuk memetakan kondisi terkini dan menentukan prioritas pembangunan di lokasi yang paling parah kerusakannya.
c. Penataan Ruang dan Pembangunan sarana-prasarana
Dengan menggunakan aplikasi SIG seorang planner dapat membuat sebuah perencanaan tata ruang melalui analisis kawasan melalui peta yang tersaji, seperti analisis terhadap dampak lingkungan, daerah resapan air, dan pembuatan suatu sarana-prasarana dengan melihat kondisi tata ruang suatu kota. Perencanaan ruang menggunakan aplikasi SIG secara benar dan opltimal dapat menghindarkan terjadinya banjir, kemacetan, serta hal-hal lain yang dapat menjadi permasalahan bagi sebuah kota. Selain itu, susunan infrastruktur suatu kota juga akan tersusun dengan lebih baik.
d. Investasi Bisnis dan Ekonomi
Dengan aplikasi SIG, para investor dapat menentukan strategi investasi berdasar kondisi geografis yang ada, kondisi penduduk dan persebarannya, dan peta infrastruktur serta aksesibilitas.
e. Pertahanan dan Komunikasi
Di bidang pertahanan, peta data spasial dapat berguna bagi pemerintah untuk mengidentifikasi batas-batas perairan dan daratan. Sedangkan dari segi komunikasi, SIG berguna untuk mengidentifikasi dan menentukan persebaran coverage menara transmitter atau BTS.
f. Games, Entertainment dan Education
Di negara-negara maju, aplikasi SIG dapat digunakan untuk membuat permainan interaktif, seperti SIM City. Sedangkan bagi pemerintah, pengembangan aplikasi SIG dapat digunakan sebagai sarana pendidikan, seperti globe, atlas, peta pariwisata, peta tata guna lahan, dan lain-lain.
5. Apa yg dimaksud dgn data spasial dan data non spasial? Jelaskan dan berikan ilustrasi(gambar atau label)!
Informasi lokasi (spasial), berkaitan dengan suatu koordinat baik koordinat geografi (lintang dan bujur) dan koordinat XYZ, termasuk diantaranya informasi datum dan proyeksi.
Informasi deskriptif (atribut) atau informasi non spasial, suatu lokasi yang memiliki beberapa keterangan yang berkaitan dengannya, contohnya : jenis vegetasi, populasi, luasan, kode pos, dan sebagainya.
6. Berikan satu contoh aplikasi SIG pd bidang tertentu dan kapabilitas apa saja yg dpt disajikan di dalamnya?
CONTOH: Dalam bidang agrikultur. Kita bisa mengetahui di daerah mana sebuah tanaman akan bertumbuh subur dan sebaliknya. :)
7. Sumber data dalam SIG di antaranya adalah citra (format raster) dan data hasil perekaman menggunakan perangkat GPS, jlskn cara kerja perolehan kedua data trsbt dan apa perbedaannya?
Cara kerja Raster:
Data raster (atau disebut juga dengan sel grid) adalah data yang dihasilkan dari sistem Penginderaan Jauh. Pada data raster, obyek geografis direpresentasikan sebagai struktur sel grid yang disebut dengan pixel (picture element). Pada data raster, resolusi (definisi visual) tergantung pada ukuran pixelnya. Dengan kata lain, resolusi pixel menggambarkan ukuran sebenarnya di permukaan bumi yang diwakili oleh setiap pixel pada citra. Semakin kecil ukuran
permukaan bumi yang direpresentasikan oleh satu sel, semakin tinggi resolusinya.
Cara kerja GPS:
Satelit GPS memancarkan sinyal pada peralatan yang berada di permukaan bumi. Receiver GPS menerima secara pasif sinyal satelit dan tidak memancarkan sinyal. GPS memerlukan ruang terbuka, sehingga hanya digunakan diluar ruangan /outdoor, dan kadang tidak bekerja dengan baik pada wilayah yang berhutan atau dekat bangunan tinggi. Cara kerja GPS bergantung pada referensi waktu yang sangat akurat, yang terdapat pada jam atom di U.S. Navy Seal Observatory. Tiap satelit GPS memiliki jam atom didalamnya.
Satelit satelit GPS memancarkan data yang mengindikasikan lokasinya dan waktu tertentu. Semua satelit GPS dioperasikan secara sinkron, jadi sinyal yang berulang-ulang dipancarkan pada saat yang sama. Sinyal bergerak pada kecepatan cahaya, tiba di Receiver GPS dengan perbedaan waktu yang kecil, karena beberapa satelit memiliki jarak yang lebih jauh dari yang lain. Jarak ke satelit GPS dapat diperhitungkan dengan memperkirakan jumlah waktu yang dibutuhkan sinyalnya untuk mencapai receiver. Ketika receiver memperkirakan jarak dari sekurangnya 4 satelit GPS, ini cukup untuk mengkalkulasikan posisi dalam 3 dimensi.
PS: Perbedaannya nggak ketemu. Mungkin bisa dikarang. :|
8. Sebutkan serta beri penjelasan mengenai semua jenis&bentuk data yg dapat di input kedalam sebuah SIG? Selengkap-lengkapnya, serta jelaskan pula mengenai cara&teknologi konversi data yg diperlukan agar data” trsbt dapat di integrasikan ke dlm SIG?
9. Apa yg anda ketahui dgn teknologi WEBSIG atau WEBGIS? Apa tujuan&manfaat serta keunggulan aplikasi WEBGIS!
Web GIS adalah sistem yang dirancang untuk bekerja dengan data yang tereferensi secara spasial atau koordinat-koordinat geografi yang berbasis web.
Tujuan dari WebGIS ini :
a. Mengembangkan peta digital berbasis WebGis untuk memudahkan pencarian data dan informasi tentang jaringan jalan, Fasilitas transportasi, aluran pematusan dan sarana prasarana pemadam kebakaran.
b. Memutakhirkan data dan menyusun mekanismenya yang bisa diterapkan.
Manfaat dari WebGIS ini :
a. Tersedianya peta atau informasi yang berbasis WebGIS yang tersusun dengan baik, akurat, mudah dibaca, dan mudah dimengerti oleh awam sekalipun, baik berupa data maupun peta skematik.
b. Mendukung perencanaan makro jaringan jalan, transportasi, sistem drainase, sarana dan prasarana pemadam kebakaran di Kota Surabaya, baik secara langsung maupun tidak langsung.
10. Apa yg anda ketahui dgn GOOGLEMAP berkaitan dgn teknologi dan fitur aplikasinya? Apa ide anda utk pengembangan aplikasi GIS utk tujuan tertentu yg serupa dgn google map? Bagaimana pula tahapan pengembangan aplikasinya?
Google Maps menurut pengertian Wikipedia adalah layanan aplikasi pemetaan berbasis web dan teknologi yang telah disediakan oleh Google, bersifat free (tidak untuk penggunaan commercial), yang memiliki kemampuan terhadap banyak layanan pemetaan berbasis web. Intinya bahwa Google Maps menurut saya adalah layanan sistem pemetaan berbasis web service yang disediakan oleh Google.
PS: Untuk pengembangannya gw sama sekali nggak ada ide. :|
Suatu komponen yang terdiri dari perangkat keras, perangkat lunak, data geografis dan sumberdaya manusia yang bekerja bersama secara efektif untuk memasukan, menyimpan, memperbaiki, memperbaharui, mengelola, memanipulasi, mengintegrasikan, menganalisa dan menampilkan data dalam suatu informasi berbasis geografis.
2. Karakteristik apa saja ygmembedakan antara SIG dgn sistem informasi pd umumnya?
Karakteristik Sistem Informasi Geografi dapat meliputi beberapa hal berikut :
a. Sistem Informasi Geografi merupakan suatu sistem hasil pengembangan perangkat keras dan perangkat lunak untuk tujuan pemetaan, sehingga fakta wilayah dapat disajikan dalam satu sistem berbasis komputer.
b. Dalam Sistem Informasi Geografi melibatkan tidak hanya satu segi namun banyak segi yaitu : ahli geografi, informatika dan komputer, serta aplikasi terkait.
c. Permasalahan dalam pengembangan Sistem Informasi Geografi meliputi: cakupan, kualitas dan standar data, struktur, model dan visualisasi data, koordinasi kelembagaan dan etika, pendidikan, expert system dan decision support system serta penerapannya
d. Perbedaannya dengan Sistem Informasi lainnya yaitu terletah pada data yang dikaitkan dengan letak geografis, dan terdiri dari data tekstual maupun grafik.
e. Sistem Informasi Geografi dimanfaatkan bukan hanya sekedar merupakan pengubahan peta konvensional (tradisional) ke bentuk peta dijital untuk kemudian disajikan (dicetak / diperbanyak) kembali
f. Kemampuan pada Sistem Informasi Geografi adalah mampu mengumpulkan, menyimpan, mentransformasikan, menampilkan, memanipulasi, memadukan dan menganalisis data spasial dari fenomena geografis suatu wilayah
g. Selain itu Sistem Informasi Geografi juga mampu menyimpan data dasar yang dibutuhkan untuk penyelesaian suatu masalah.
3. Sebutkan komponen” yg membentuk SIG dan jlskn masing” !
Perangkat Keras
Perangkat Lunak
Data dan Informasi Geografi (Data Spasial & Non-Spasial)
Manajemen
User
Metode
PS: Penjelasannya karang sendiri aja ya. :D
4. Apakah keunggulan pemanfaatan teknologi SIG secara umum?
Terdapat beberapa manfaat penggunaan SIG terhadap beberapa bidang ilmu :
a. Inventarisasi Sumber Daya Alam
Melalui penerapan GIS dapat diidentifikasi tentang potensi-potensi alam yang tersebar di suatu wilayah. Identifikasi ini akan memudahkan untuk pengelolaan sumber alam untuk kepentingan orang banyak.
b. Disaster Management
Aplikasi SIG dapat digunakan untuk melakukan pengelolaan pemulihan suatu kawasan pasca bencana. Misalnya, setelah tsunami yang menerjang Aceh dan Nias, Badan Rehabilitasi - Rekonstruksi Aceh - Nias (BRR Aceh-Nias) menggunakan GIS untuk memetakan kondisi terkini dan menentukan prioritas pembangunan di lokasi yang paling parah kerusakannya.
c. Penataan Ruang dan Pembangunan sarana-prasarana
Dengan menggunakan aplikasi SIG seorang planner dapat membuat sebuah perencanaan tata ruang melalui analisis kawasan melalui peta yang tersaji, seperti analisis terhadap dampak lingkungan, daerah resapan air, dan pembuatan suatu sarana-prasarana dengan melihat kondisi tata ruang suatu kota. Perencanaan ruang menggunakan aplikasi SIG secara benar dan opltimal dapat menghindarkan terjadinya banjir, kemacetan, serta hal-hal lain yang dapat menjadi permasalahan bagi sebuah kota. Selain itu, susunan infrastruktur suatu kota juga akan tersusun dengan lebih baik.
d. Investasi Bisnis dan Ekonomi
Dengan aplikasi SIG, para investor dapat menentukan strategi investasi berdasar kondisi geografis yang ada, kondisi penduduk dan persebarannya, dan peta infrastruktur serta aksesibilitas.
e. Pertahanan dan Komunikasi
Di bidang pertahanan, peta data spasial dapat berguna bagi pemerintah untuk mengidentifikasi batas-batas perairan dan daratan. Sedangkan dari segi komunikasi, SIG berguna untuk mengidentifikasi dan menentukan persebaran coverage menara transmitter atau BTS.
f. Games, Entertainment dan Education
Di negara-negara maju, aplikasi SIG dapat digunakan untuk membuat permainan interaktif, seperti SIM City. Sedangkan bagi pemerintah, pengembangan aplikasi SIG dapat digunakan sebagai sarana pendidikan, seperti globe, atlas, peta pariwisata, peta tata guna lahan, dan lain-lain.
5. Apa yg dimaksud dgn data spasial dan data non spasial? Jelaskan dan berikan ilustrasi(gambar atau label)!
Informasi lokasi (spasial), berkaitan dengan suatu koordinat baik koordinat geografi (lintang dan bujur) dan koordinat XYZ, termasuk diantaranya informasi datum dan proyeksi.
Informasi deskriptif (atribut) atau informasi non spasial, suatu lokasi yang memiliki beberapa keterangan yang berkaitan dengannya, contohnya : jenis vegetasi, populasi, luasan, kode pos, dan sebagainya.
6. Berikan satu contoh aplikasi SIG pd bidang tertentu dan kapabilitas apa saja yg dpt disajikan di dalamnya?
CONTOH: Dalam bidang agrikultur. Kita bisa mengetahui di daerah mana sebuah tanaman akan bertumbuh subur dan sebaliknya. :)
7. Sumber data dalam SIG di antaranya adalah citra (format raster) dan data hasil perekaman menggunakan perangkat GPS, jlskn cara kerja perolehan kedua data trsbt dan apa perbedaannya?
Cara kerja Raster:
Data raster (atau disebut juga dengan sel grid) adalah data yang dihasilkan dari sistem Penginderaan Jauh. Pada data raster, obyek geografis direpresentasikan sebagai struktur sel grid yang disebut dengan pixel (picture element). Pada data raster, resolusi (definisi visual) tergantung pada ukuran pixelnya. Dengan kata lain, resolusi pixel menggambarkan ukuran sebenarnya di permukaan bumi yang diwakili oleh setiap pixel pada citra. Semakin kecil ukuran
permukaan bumi yang direpresentasikan oleh satu sel, semakin tinggi resolusinya.
Cara kerja GPS:
Satelit GPS memancarkan sinyal pada peralatan yang berada di permukaan bumi. Receiver GPS menerima secara pasif sinyal satelit dan tidak memancarkan sinyal. GPS memerlukan ruang terbuka, sehingga hanya digunakan diluar ruangan /outdoor, dan kadang tidak bekerja dengan baik pada wilayah yang berhutan atau dekat bangunan tinggi. Cara kerja GPS bergantung pada referensi waktu yang sangat akurat, yang terdapat pada jam atom di U.S. Navy Seal Observatory. Tiap satelit GPS memiliki jam atom didalamnya.
Satelit satelit GPS memancarkan data yang mengindikasikan lokasinya dan waktu tertentu. Semua satelit GPS dioperasikan secara sinkron, jadi sinyal yang berulang-ulang dipancarkan pada saat yang sama. Sinyal bergerak pada kecepatan cahaya, tiba di Receiver GPS dengan perbedaan waktu yang kecil, karena beberapa satelit memiliki jarak yang lebih jauh dari yang lain. Jarak ke satelit GPS dapat diperhitungkan dengan memperkirakan jumlah waktu yang dibutuhkan sinyalnya untuk mencapai receiver. Ketika receiver memperkirakan jarak dari sekurangnya 4 satelit GPS, ini cukup untuk mengkalkulasikan posisi dalam 3 dimensi.
PS: Perbedaannya nggak ketemu. Mungkin bisa dikarang. :|
8. Sebutkan serta beri penjelasan mengenai semua jenis&bentuk data yg dapat di input kedalam sebuah SIG? Selengkap-lengkapnya, serta jelaskan pula mengenai cara&teknologi konversi data yg diperlukan agar data” trsbt dapat di integrasikan ke dlm SIG?
9. Apa yg anda ketahui dgn teknologi WEBSIG atau WEBGIS? Apa tujuan&manfaat serta keunggulan aplikasi WEBGIS!
Web GIS adalah sistem yang dirancang untuk bekerja dengan data yang tereferensi secara spasial atau koordinat-koordinat geografi yang berbasis web.
Tujuan dari WebGIS ini :
a. Mengembangkan peta digital berbasis WebGis untuk memudahkan pencarian data dan informasi tentang jaringan jalan, Fasilitas transportasi, aluran pematusan dan sarana prasarana pemadam kebakaran.
b. Memutakhirkan data dan menyusun mekanismenya yang bisa diterapkan.
Manfaat dari WebGIS ini :
a. Tersedianya peta atau informasi yang berbasis WebGIS yang tersusun dengan baik, akurat, mudah dibaca, dan mudah dimengerti oleh awam sekalipun, baik berupa data maupun peta skematik.
b. Mendukung perencanaan makro jaringan jalan, transportasi, sistem drainase, sarana dan prasarana pemadam kebakaran di Kota Surabaya, baik secara langsung maupun tidak langsung.
10. Apa yg anda ketahui dgn GOOGLEMAP berkaitan dgn teknologi dan fitur aplikasinya? Apa ide anda utk pengembangan aplikasi GIS utk tujuan tertentu yg serupa dgn google map? Bagaimana pula tahapan pengembangan aplikasinya?
Google Maps menurut pengertian Wikipedia adalah layanan aplikasi pemetaan berbasis web dan teknologi yang telah disediakan oleh Google, bersifat free (tidak untuk penggunaan commercial), yang memiliki kemampuan terhadap banyak layanan pemetaan berbasis web. Intinya bahwa Google Maps menurut saya adalah layanan sistem pemetaan berbasis web service yang disediakan oleh Google.
PS: Untuk pengembangannya gw sama sekali nggak ada ide. :|
Friday, June 1, 2012
Manajemen Sumber Daya Manusia - Quiz
1. Sebutkan pengertian manajemen SDM!
Manajemen SDM berkaitan dengan cara pengelolaan sumber daya insani, dalam organisasi dan lingkungan yang mempengaruhinya, agar mampu memberikan kontribusi secara optimal bagi pencapaian organisasi.
2. Sebutkan fungsi manajemen SDM & sebutkan masing-masing fungsi!
Manajemen SDM terdiri dari 2 fungsi, yaitu fungsi manajemen dan fungsi operasional.
FUNGSI MANAJEMEN terdidi dari:
a. Fungsi Perencanaan
b. Fungsi Pengorganisasian
c. Fungsi Pengarahan
d. Fungsi Pengkoordinasian
e. Fungsi Pengontrolan/Pengawasan
FUNGSI OPERASIONAL terdiri dari:
a. Fungsi Pengadaan
b. Fungsi Pengembangan
c. Fungsi Pengadaan
d. Fungsi Integrasi
e. Fungsi Pemeliharaan
3. Sebutkan & jelaskan kriteria informasi berkualitas!
Kriteria informasi berkualitas ada 5, yaitu:
a. Relevan: Informasi yang disediakan berhubungan dengan masalah penelitian SDM.
b. Akurat: Menunjukkan tingkat atau derajat ketepatan informasi yang diberikan.
c. Reliable: Informasi yang disediakan dapat diandalkan/dipercaya kebenarannya.
d. Valid: Informasi tersebut memiliki kekonsistenan.
e. Aktual: Informasi yang diberikan masih baru dan tidak ketinggalan zaman, sehingga masih sesuai dengan konteks waktu saat keputusan dibuat.
4. Sebutkan & jelaskan yang termasuk dalam subsistem penelitian SDM!
Yang termasuk dalam subsistem penelitian adalah:
a. Penelitian Suksesi (Succession Studies) dilakukan untuk mengidentifikasi orang-orang dalam perusahaan yang merupakan calon bagi posisi yang akan tersedia.
b. Analisa dan Evaluasi Jabatan (Job Analysis and Evaluation) mempelajari setiap jabatan dalam suatu area untuk menentukan lingkup dan mengidentifikasi pengetahuan dan keahlian yang diperlukan.
c. Penelitiah Keluhan (Grievance Studies) membuat tindak lanjut atas keluhan yang disampaikan pegawai untuk berbagai alasan.
5. Sebutkan & jelaskan poin-poin penting dalam proses rekruitmen!
Proses rekruitmen ada 4 yaitu:
a. Penyusunan stratei untuk merekrut: peran departemen SDM bertanggung jawab dalam menentukan kualifikasi-kualifikasi pekerjaan, bagaimana karyawan direkrut, di mana tempatnya dan kapan pelaksanaannya.
b. Pencarian pelamar-pelamar kerja: banyak/sedikit pelamar kerja dipengaruhi oleh usaha dari pihak perekrut untuk menginformasikan lowongan. Salah satu caranya adalah dengan membina hubungan yang baik dengan sekolah-sekolah atau universitas-universitas.
c. Penyaringan atau penyisihan pelamar-pelamar kerja yang tidak cocok: dalam proses ini memerlukan perhatian besar yang khusus untuk membendung diskualifikasi karena alasan yang tidak tepat.
d. Pembuatan kumpulan pelamar: kelompok pelamar yang sudah disaring merupakan kumpulan individu-individu yang telah sesuai dengan kriteria yang telah ditetapkan oleh perekrut dan merupakan kandidat yang layak untuk posisi yang dibutuhkan.
6. Apa yang dimaksud dengan database sistem informasi sumber daya manusia?
7. Apa saja yang termasuk dalam subsistem input?
a. Sub Sistem SIA (Sistem Informasi Akuntansi)
SIA menyediakan data akuntansi bagi HRIS sehingga database berisi gambaran yang lengkap dari sumber daya personil bail keuangan maupun non keuangan.
b. Sub Sistem Penelitian Sumber Daya Manusia.
Berfungsi untuk mengumpulkan data melalui proyek penelitian khusus.
c. Sub Sistem Intelijen Sumber Daya Manusia.
Berfungsi mengumpulkan data yang berhubungan dengan sumber daya manusia dari lingkungan perusahaan.
8. Apa saja yang termasuk dalam subsistem output?
Subsistem Perencanaan Angkatan Kerja
Subsistem Perekrutan
Subsistem Manajemen Angkatan Kerja
Subsistem Kompensasi
Subsistem Benefit
Subsistem Pelaporan Lingkungan
9. Sebutkan dan jelaskan teknik-teknik rekruitmen!
Teknik-teknik rekrutmen:
a. Sentralisasi: rekrutmen yang dipusatkan akan lebih sering dipakai karena lebih efisien dari segi biaya.
b. Desentralisasi: terjadi pada instansi-instansi yang relatif kecil karena kebutuhan rekrutmen terbatas.
10. Jelaskan pengertian dari:
Keahlian/Kompetensi:
Kompetensi merupakan salah satu syarat untuk dapat melaksanakan tugas dengan baik.
Suksesi:
1. Penggantian (Terutama di lingkungan pimpinan tertinggi negara) karena pewarisan.
2. Proses pergantian kepemimpinan sesuai dengan peraturan perundang-undangan yang berlaku.
Relokasi:
Relokasi/Rotasi pegawai merupakan pemindahan pegawai meliputi jabatan-jabatan yang berbeda-beda sehingga diharapkan memperoleh pengetahuan yang lebih luas dari bidang-bidang lain selain pekerjaan utamanya & bisa menghilangkan kejenuhan pegawai.
11. Sebutkan yang termasuk dalam intelijen SDM!
a. Intelijen Pemerintah.
Pemerintah menyediakan data dan informasi yang membantu perusahaan mengikuti berbagai peraturan ketenagakerjaan.
b. Intelijen Pemasok.
Pemasok mencakup perusahaan seperti perusahaan asuransi, yang memberikan tunjangan pegawai, dan lembaga penempatan lulusan universitas serta agen tenaga kerja yang berfungsi sebagai sumber pegawai baru.
c. Intelijen Serikat Pekerja.
Serikat pekerja memberikan data dan informasi yang digunakan dalam mengatur kontrak kerja antara serikat pekerja dan
perusahaan.
d. Intelijen Masyarakat Global.
Masyarakat global menyediakan informasi yang menjelaskan sumber daya lokal seperti perumahan, pendidikan, dan rekreasi.
e. Intelijen Masyarakat Keuangan.
Masyarakat keuangan memberikan data dan informasi ekonomi yang digunakan dalam perncanaan personil.
f. Intelijen Pesaing.
12. Besarnya kompensasi yang diberikan ditentukan oleh?
a. Harga/nilai pekerjaan
b. Sistem kompensasi yang diterapkan.
c. Faktor-faktor yang mempengaruhi kompensasi
13. Jelaskan pengertian dari:
Pelatihan:
Pelatihan adalah serangkaian aktivitas yang dirancang untuk meningkatkan keahlian, pengetahuan, pengalaman, ataupun perubahan sikap seorang individu.
Kinerja:
Kinerja adalah hasil seseorang secara keseluruhan selama periode tertentu dalam melaksanakan tugas, seperti standar hasil kerja, target, atau sasaran atau kriteria yang telah ditentukan terlebih dahulu dan telah disepakati bersama.
14. Sebutkan manfaat pelatihan dan pengembangan SDM!
Manfaat Pelatihan:
- Menaingkatkan kuantitas dan kualitas produktivitas.
- Mengurangi waktu belajar yang diperlukan setiap individu untuk mencapai standar kinerja yang dapat diterima.
- Menciptakan sikap, loyalitas, kerja sama yang lebih menguntungkan.
- Memenuhi persyaratan-persyaratan perencanaan SDM.
- Mengurangi jumlah dan biaya kecelakaan kerja.
- Membantu setiap individu dalam peningkatan dan pengembangan pribadi mereka.
Manajemen SDM berkaitan dengan cara pengelolaan sumber daya insani, dalam organisasi dan lingkungan yang mempengaruhinya, agar mampu memberikan kontribusi secara optimal bagi pencapaian organisasi.
2. Sebutkan fungsi manajemen SDM & sebutkan masing-masing fungsi!
Manajemen SDM terdiri dari 2 fungsi, yaitu fungsi manajemen dan fungsi operasional.
FUNGSI MANAJEMEN terdidi dari:
a. Fungsi Perencanaan
b. Fungsi Pengorganisasian
c. Fungsi Pengarahan
d. Fungsi Pengkoordinasian
e. Fungsi Pengontrolan/Pengawasan
FUNGSI OPERASIONAL terdiri dari:
a. Fungsi Pengadaan
b. Fungsi Pengembangan
c. Fungsi Pengadaan
d. Fungsi Integrasi
e. Fungsi Pemeliharaan
3. Sebutkan & jelaskan kriteria informasi berkualitas!
Kriteria informasi berkualitas ada 5, yaitu:
a. Relevan: Informasi yang disediakan berhubungan dengan masalah penelitian SDM.
b. Akurat: Menunjukkan tingkat atau derajat ketepatan informasi yang diberikan.
c. Reliable: Informasi yang disediakan dapat diandalkan/dipercaya kebenarannya.
d. Valid: Informasi tersebut memiliki kekonsistenan.
e. Aktual: Informasi yang diberikan masih baru dan tidak ketinggalan zaman, sehingga masih sesuai dengan konteks waktu saat keputusan dibuat.
4. Sebutkan & jelaskan yang termasuk dalam subsistem penelitian SDM!
Yang termasuk dalam subsistem penelitian adalah:
a. Penelitian Suksesi (Succession Studies) dilakukan untuk mengidentifikasi orang-orang dalam perusahaan yang merupakan calon bagi posisi yang akan tersedia.
b. Analisa dan Evaluasi Jabatan (Job Analysis and Evaluation) mempelajari setiap jabatan dalam suatu area untuk menentukan lingkup dan mengidentifikasi pengetahuan dan keahlian yang diperlukan.
c. Penelitiah Keluhan (Grievance Studies) membuat tindak lanjut atas keluhan yang disampaikan pegawai untuk berbagai alasan.
5. Sebutkan & jelaskan poin-poin penting dalam proses rekruitmen!
Proses rekruitmen ada 4 yaitu:
a. Penyusunan stratei untuk merekrut: peran departemen SDM bertanggung jawab dalam menentukan kualifikasi-kualifikasi pekerjaan, bagaimana karyawan direkrut, di mana tempatnya dan kapan pelaksanaannya.
b. Pencarian pelamar-pelamar kerja: banyak/sedikit pelamar kerja dipengaruhi oleh usaha dari pihak perekrut untuk menginformasikan lowongan. Salah satu caranya adalah dengan membina hubungan yang baik dengan sekolah-sekolah atau universitas-universitas.
c. Penyaringan atau penyisihan pelamar-pelamar kerja yang tidak cocok: dalam proses ini memerlukan perhatian besar yang khusus untuk membendung diskualifikasi karena alasan yang tidak tepat.
d. Pembuatan kumpulan pelamar: kelompok pelamar yang sudah disaring merupakan kumpulan individu-individu yang telah sesuai dengan kriteria yang telah ditetapkan oleh perekrut dan merupakan kandidat yang layak untuk posisi yang dibutuhkan.
6. Apa yang dimaksud dengan database sistem informasi sumber daya manusia?
7. Apa saja yang termasuk dalam subsistem input?
a. Sub Sistem SIA (Sistem Informasi Akuntansi)
SIA menyediakan data akuntansi bagi HRIS sehingga database berisi gambaran yang lengkap dari sumber daya personil bail keuangan maupun non keuangan.
b. Sub Sistem Penelitian Sumber Daya Manusia.
Berfungsi untuk mengumpulkan data melalui proyek penelitian khusus.
c. Sub Sistem Intelijen Sumber Daya Manusia.
Berfungsi mengumpulkan data yang berhubungan dengan sumber daya manusia dari lingkungan perusahaan.
8. Apa saja yang termasuk dalam subsistem output?
Subsistem Perencanaan Angkatan Kerja
Subsistem Perekrutan
Subsistem Manajemen Angkatan Kerja
Subsistem Kompensasi
Subsistem Benefit
Subsistem Pelaporan Lingkungan
9. Sebutkan dan jelaskan teknik-teknik rekruitmen!
Teknik-teknik rekrutmen:
a. Sentralisasi: rekrutmen yang dipusatkan akan lebih sering dipakai karena lebih efisien dari segi biaya.
b. Desentralisasi: terjadi pada instansi-instansi yang relatif kecil karena kebutuhan rekrutmen terbatas.
10. Jelaskan pengertian dari:
Keahlian/Kompetensi:
Kompetensi merupakan salah satu syarat untuk dapat melaksanakan tugas dengan baik.
Suksesi:
1. Penggantian (Terutama di lingkungan pimpinan tertinggi negara) karena pewarisan.
2. Proses pergantian kepemimpinan sesuai dengan peraturan perundang-undangan yang berlaku.
Relokasi:
Relokasi/Rotasi pegawai merupakan pemindahan pegawai meliputi jabatan-jabatan yang berbeda-beda sehingga diharapkan memperoleh pengetahuan yang lebih luas dari bidang-bidang lain selain pekerjaan utamanya & bisa menghilangkan kejenuhan pegawai.
11. Sebutkan yang termasuk dalam intelijen SDM!
a. Intelijen Pemerintah.
Pemerintah menyediakan data dan informasi yang membantu perusahaan mengikuti berbagai peraturan ketenagakerjaan.
b. Intelijen Pemasok.
Pemasok mencakup perusahaan seperti perusahaan asuransi, yang memberikan tunjangan pegawai, dan lembaga penempatan lulusan universitas serta agen tenaga kerja yang berfungsi sebagai sumber pegawai baru.
c. Intelijen Serikat Pekerja.
Serikat pekerja memberikan data dan informasi yang digunakan dalam mengatur kontrak kerja antara serikat pekerja dan
perusahaan.
d. Intelijen Masyarakat Global.
Masyarakat global menyediakan informasi yang menjelaskan sumber daya lokal seperti perumahan, pendidikan, dan rekreasi.
e. Intelijen Masyarakat Keuangan.
Masyarakat keuangan memberikan data dan informasi ekonomi yang digunakan dalam perncanaan personil.
f. Intelijen Pesaing.
12. Besarnya kompensasi yang diberikan ditentukan oleh?
a. Harga/nilai pekerjaan
b. Sistem kompensasi yang diterapkan.
c. Faktor-faktor yang mempengaruhi kompensasi
13. Jelaskan pengertian dari:
Pelatihan:
Pelatihan adalah serangkaian aktivitas yang dirancang untuk meningkatkan keahlian, pengetahuan, pengalaman, ataupun perubahan sikap seorang individu.
Kinerja:
Kinerja adalah hasil seseorang secara keseluruhan selama periode tertentu dalam melaksanakan tugas, seperti standar hasil kerja, target, atau sasaran atau kriteria yang telah ditentukan terlebih dahulu dan telah disepakati bersama.
14. Sebutkan manfaat pelatihan dan pengembangan SDM!
Manfaat Pelatihan:
- Menaingkatkan kuantitas dan kualitas produktivitas.
- Mengurangi waktu belajar yang diperlukan setiap individu untuk mencapai standar kinerja yang dapat diterima.
- Menciptakan sikap, loyalitas, kerja sama yang lebih menguntungkan.
- Memenuhi persyaratan-persyaratan perencanaan SDM.
- Mengurangi jumlah dan biaya kecelakaan kerja.
- Membantu setiap individu dalam peningkatan dan pengembangan pribadi mereka.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Testing dan Implementasi Last Quiz
1. Proses eksekusi suatu program dengan maksud menemukan kesalahan merupakan
pengertian dari : d. Testing
2. Dalam rencana pengujian "The Testing Process" dikenal ada proses testing, maksudnya : a. Deskripsi fase - fase utama dalam pengujian
3. Berikut ini adalah tahap siklus hidup pengembangan perangkat lunak, kecuali : d. Implementasi
4. Pengujian kelompok-kelompok yang integritas untuk membentuk sub-sistem / sistem yang dilakukan oleh tim penguji yang independent merupakan bagian dari : b. Integration testing
5. Pengujian terakhir sebelum sistem di pakai oleh user merupakan pengertian dari : b. Acceptance
6. Yang termasuk kedalam bagian dari proses testing kecuali : d. Output testing
7. Apakah yang dimaksud dengan SDLC ? a. Siklus dari pembuatan perangkat lunak untuk membangun system dalam skala besar
8. Keuntungan dari perangkat lunak komersial dari vendor kecuali : c. Ketergantungan pada vendor
9. Bahasa spesifikasi standar untuk mendokumentasikan, memspesifikasikan dan membangun sistem perangkat lunak adalah : a. UML (unified modeling language)
10. Empat tahapan dalam metodologi RUP adalah sbb : a. Insepsi, elaborsi, konstruksi, transisi
11. Bahasa pemrograman yang mendukung OOP, kecuali : d. TCL
12. Memberikan training pada user termasuk dalam tahap : d. Implementasi
13. Keunggulan 4 GL adalah, kecuali : a. Efisiensi mesin
14. Keunggulan 3 GL adalah, kecuali : b. Jalur kode yang lebih sedikit
15 Yang dimaksud dengan dokumentasi internal adalah : c. dokumen yang digabung dengan pengkodean program
16. Sumber pembuatan perangkat lunak aplikasi adalah :
d. a,b dan c benar
PS: kalo yg gw google, sumbernya cuma 2: A sama C. tapi krn ga ada, gw milih yang D.
17. Pengujian perangkat lunak secara structural,yaitu : a. white-box
18. Berikut merupakan definisi dari software, kecuali : d. Salah semua
19. Yang merupakan alat perancangan lunak terstruktur adalah : a. Kamus data
20. Dalam proses testing terdapat component testing dan integration testing,yang merupakan bagian dari integration testing adalah : b. Subsystem testing – system testing
pengertian dari : d. Testing
2. Dalam rencana pengujian "The Testing Process" dikenal ada proses testing, maksudnya : a. Deskripsi fase - fase utama dalam pengujian
3. Berikut ini adalah tahap siklus hidup pengembangan perangkat lunak, kecuali : d. Implementasi
4. Pengujian kelompok-kelompok yang integritas untuk membentuk sub-sistem / sistem yang dilakukan oleh tim penguji yang independent merupakan bagian dari : b. Integration testing
5. Pengujian terakhir sebelum sistem di pakai oleh user merupakan pengertian dari : b. Acceptance
6. Yang termasuk kedalam bagian dari proses testing kecuali : d. Output testing
7. Apakah yang dimaksud dengan SDLC ? a. Siklus dari pembuatan perangkat lunak untuk membangun system dalam skala besar
8. Keuntungan dari perangkat lunak komersial dari vendor kecuali : c. Ketergantungan pada vendor
9. Bahasa spesifikasi standar untuk mendokumentasikan, memspesifikasikan dan membangun sistem perangkat lunak adalah : a. UML (unified modeling language)
10. Empat tahapan dalam metodologi RUP adalah sbb : a. Insepsi, elaborsi, konstruksi, transisi
11. Bahasa pemrograman yang mendukung OOP, kecuali : d. TCL
12. Memberikan training pada user termasuk dalam tahap : d. Implementasi
13. Keunggulan 4 GL adalah, kecuali : a. Efisiensi mesin
14. Keunggulan 3 GL adalah, kecuali : b. Jalur kode yang lebih sedikit
15 Yang dimaksud dengan dokumentasi internal adalah : c. dokumen yang digabung dengan pengkodean program
16. Sumber pembuatan perangkat lunak aplikasi adalah :
d. a,b dan c benar
PS: kalo yg gw google, sumbernya cuma 2: A sama C. tapi krn ga ada, gw milih yang D.
17. Pengujian perangkat lunak secara structural,yaitu : a. white-box
18. Berikut merupakan definisi dari software, kecuali : d. Salah semua
19. Yang merupakan alat perancangan lunak terstruktur adalah : a. Kamus data
20. Dalam proses testing terdapat component testing dan integration testing,yang merupakan bagian dari integration testing adalah : b. Subsystem testing – system testing
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