I'm Not Ready

I'm really not that ready..
but I have to, right?
even though every time we talk, I always said "I'm tougher now"
but I'm not prepared for any of this.
I always wish I were there.
not because I haven't see snow
or because I don't know how USA looks like
but more because you're there.
knowing this. read the sentence that you just wrote.
I broken. into pieces.
I am not ready. but I have to. so I will.
I just.. love you.