new hair-cut!

okay this is like the most unimportant post. lmao.
but I just cut my hair.
IDK if you're gonna like it or not.

I do this spontaneously when I was looking for new wallet (I lost my wallet in the bus on friday night), but can't find the unique one. so, I decided to cut this hair.
I think it's not bad. :)

those are the newest pictures of me.
how do I look?
do I look better in long hair? or short one?

PS: for the pingbox visitor named "baba", thanks. :)

love ya readers!

3 Days to Birthmark

Yeahhhh (Yeahhh)

Ohh (Ohh)

Yeahhh (Yeahhh)

Ohh (Ohh)

Yeaahh

I made the mark on Feburary 1st

Between me and you, you can call it birth

The beginning of our universe

remind me of Alicia Keys first

I'm falling for you

I wish I had an opportunity to not do

What I did to hurt you

And now I'm here livin' with regrets

I know that it was my fault

I know that I got caught

So please dont loose your thoughts

Me lovin' you and you lovin' me

I'm on the highway swurvin'

I ain't drunk but I'm about to hit the curb

Lookin' at the calendar gettin' nervous Just a few more days till the first

Chorus:

So this the day it all began

One place that it came together

More than a ring or a tattoo

It's your birthmark that reminds me of you

So let's get on a airplane

Go back to where we began

To that point which is days apart

That's stamped right next to your heart

To your heart

To your heart

To your heart (To your heart) (X3)

(Your heart) (X3)

Get the calendar, go to August 3rd

First words today, we had our first words

First arguement got to let it go

Cuz it could possibly affect what our future holds

Flipping pages now I'm famous

Thinking back I ain't seen you in ages

Wishin' that I could have made it less painless

Brings me back, right back to the same mess

I know that it was my fault

I know that I got caught

So please dont loose your thoughts

Me lovin' you and you lovin' me

I'm on the highway swurvin'

I ain't drunk but I'm about to hit the curb

Lookin' at the calendar gettin' nervous

Just a few more days till the first

Chorus:

So this the day it all began

One place that it came together

More than a ring or a tattoo

It's your birthmark that reminds me of you

So let's get on a airplane

Go back to where we began

To that point which is days apart

That's stamped right next to your heart

To your heart

To your heart

To your heart (To your heart) (X3)

(Your heart) (X3)

January, Febuary, March, April, May

June, July, August is just another day

September, October, November tryin' to find a way

And December the month my calendar defeat again

If only we could go

To that place where me and you know

There's no fake, front, cheat or even lyin'

The time has come where we stand face to face

Chorus:

This the day it all began

One place that it came together

More than a ring or a tattoo

It's your birthmark that reminds me of you

So let's get on a airplane

Go back to where we began

To that point which is days apart

That's stamped right next to your heart

To your heart (X3)

That's stamped right right next to your heart

To your heart

To your heart

To your heart (To your heart)(X3)

That's stamped right next to your heart

realize

I just get my job back. IDK if my boss will let me work for a long time. but this is more than enough.
thank God.

I remember when everything seems to be wonderful last year. on November, I got a man. on December, I have a job.
it's just great.

now, when my man don't want me (I actually can't say "my man" anymore) to be his woman, I am complaining. I know it's my fault. but everyone deserves a second chance.
"some people fight for love, and I believe it's true 'cause I do the same for you". that's what Elliot Yamin said in one of his song called Fight For Love.
but I can't fight for someone if he doesn't want to be fight for. I send him e-mails. try to stop once, but I can't until I get some reply. he deleted me from his Messenger, blocked me from his twitter account, and successfully make me feel like a "SPAM". or maybe, I'm a SPAM.

but I won't complain anymore because I know I will lose everything I have one day. I just think I'm not well-prepared to accept that now.
I never regret loving him. and his past. and his weakness. I can say I still love him. I never regret everything I've done for him. I never regret wake up every four hours or doing the pen thing on my hand.
I never mad at him at any moment. even when he decides to leave, I'm not mad. it's my fault because yes, I am fucked up in the head. all I can do is apologizing and wait for his response even though I think, it won't come out.

I miss him. I miss everything about him. but I realize that he has family that's at the top of his list. I probably at number 345932 on that list. but I don't care. this is fair. now he makes me cry badly when once upon a time, he made me laugh insanely.

later, readers.
I love you.

hi, readers

I always said "I've been in worse condition." but I think I am in the worst condition right now.
I feel bad. it's my fault. I disrespect people I love. I miss my second chance I think. I can't stop fucking crying right now.
this is so hard. this is harder than anything before.
I feel like a crap.
really really need someone to talk to about right now.
love you, readers.

Come Back Song

woke up again this morning

And wouldn't you know it... pouring rain

I went and burned a pot of coffee

And like that I poured it down the drain

'Cause I didn't know I needed you so

And letting you go was wrong

And baby I know you got your radio on

So this is my my bad, come back song

I know I said I wouldn't miss you

But now I'm saying I'm a fool

You're on the feel good side of leaving

And I'm the backside of a mule

'Cause I didn't know I needed you so

And letting you go was wrong

And baby I know you got your radio on

So this is my so sad come back song

And now I'm laying down without you

In this king size empty bed

And I wish I had my arms around you

Now I'll just dream of you instead

'Cause I didn't know I needed you so

And letting you go was wrong

And baby I know you got your radio on

So this is my get back, come back

Hey, I didn't know I needed you so

And letting you go and letting you go was wrong

And baby I know you got your radio on

So this is my my bad, come back song

Oh yeah yeah

I know I said I wouldn't miss you

I said I wouldn't miss you girl, yeah

Na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na

We all sang na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na, yeah

Come on now

This is my my bad, come back song

The Limitless Losers

I watch 3 movies in a row. I mean, I watch The-A-Team yesterday, Limitless this afternoon, and just got off with The Losers.

so, between these 3 movies, I love The-A-Team the most. then The Losers and Limitless.

IMO, Limitless is a little bit confusing. doesn't mean I don't like the movie. it's just not what I'm expected to. I expect more action, more great conversation, MORE. but that's what I get.

Limitless is kinda like a book I ever read "Flowers For Algernon". someone who was nothing become real precious. the different is, in this movie, Eddie (Bradley Cooper) got anything he wants. in the end, he make this medicines in his lab. but in that book, Charlie dies in the end of the story.

soooo, Limitless is not that good. I give 3-Star rate to this movie.

~

The Losers. I like this. :)
Clay, Cougar, Pooch, Roque, and Jensen. 5 men that supposed to be killed by a man named Max in Bolivia. but unfortunately, they're not in the helicopter. so, Max kills wrong people.

they plan to take revenge, but Roque betray them all. they have Aisha too. Aisha is a daughter of a man named Fadhil who killed by Clay. just watch the movie and you'll know.

Pooch is real funny. I'm laughing so hard at this man. lmao. =))=))

The Losers got 4-Star rate from me.

~

so that's all. I mean, I really like action movie right now. and so far, I like The-A-Team the most. so, you better watch it. :)
love you, readers. :)

Things About Me

I was thinking about making this post when I just wake up around 1 hour ago. lmao. so there you go.

• my real name is Fissheal Manuel. Fiss = Fisika (Physics in English) and Heal = Healing. my dad is a lecture of Physics and my mom is a nurse. why double "S"? because they don't want my name to be write like "FISH". :)
• dog is my favorite animal.
• I love talking to myself in the middle of the night.
• I love pretending to be a dancer.
• I'm allergic to dust but I can't clean the dust because I have asthma.
• I really don't like ORANGE. I mean, the color. not the fruit.
• I don't like most of vegetables.
• I'm a lazy person.
• when I'm still on my mom's belly, there's someone get in the house. he brings knife and threaten my mom.
• I have cylinder 0,5 on my left eye.
• I am MEAN as hell.
• my first date when I was 12 y.o
• my first kiss happens around 3 years ago.
• I'm a black-man-oriented.
• my favorite musician is Akon.
• my favorite sports are Chess and Basketball.
• I have no favorite color. but I think I like gray.
• I have 3 twitter accounts, 3 blogger accounts, and 3 facebook accounts.
• I have lesbian friend but I have no gay friend.
• I'm a little bit racist.
• I was a smoker.
• I like taking baked picture of me.
• I love musics and movies.
• when I was on junior high school, I like pretending to be a ranger. I mean, power ranger. lmao.
• I watch English movie with English subtitle. and they need to be hear impaired.
• I love reading.
• my favorite author is John Grisham.
• my favorite actor is Nicolas Cage.
• my favorite movie is The-A-Team.
• my favorite Nicolas Cage's movie is Face Off.
• I play like 50 games on facebook.
• I have 8 e-mails I think. or more.
• I don't like it when people ask me about something unimportant.
• my friends know my secrets more than my mom.
• I prefer write my problems than speak it out.
• I am rude.
• I say something offensive.
• my lotion is honey something. -_-"
• I have stretch-marks on my shoulder, butt, belly, and thigh.
• brown skin, 150 lbs, 5.34 ft.
• I use glasses since 2004 if I'm not mistaken.
• I don't like freak make-up. I like the simple one, though.
• my hair has been straightened for 3 times. now I love it curly.
• my mood is really unstable.
• I love seafood.
• right now, I am thinking about what am I supposed to type next.

I think that's all. I'll add some more if I think you need to know more. lmao.
later, folks. love ya!

there's no plan B

it's just a short quote on The-A-Team Movie.
I watch this movie 2 days in a row. the first version is in Russia, and the second one is (finally) in English. damn man.
Bradley Cooper is hot. not hotter than my man though.
watch the trailer down there.



so, this movie was released a year ago. my man already told me about this movie but I can't find it anywhere and just found it now.
The-A-Team (The Alpha Team) is including Liam Neeson (Hannibal), Bradley Cooper (Face), Quinton Jackson (B.A), and Sharlto Copley (Murdock).
it's totally funny and awesome. I mean, it's just cool.

I don't like Jessica Biel's here. I mean, she doesn't fit the character. I prefer Cameron Diaz or Mila Kunis. or maybe Keira Knightley. those women way better I think. no offense to all of you who loves her.

if you see the poster of this movie, it says "There's No Plan B". I like how these men think about making plan. things not always happen as what you plan but plan is still a plan. keep doing it. lol.
this is awesome.

aaaaand, I finally now where my man get his "A-ha, Okay, Whassup, Shut Up!" thing. lol. it's the soundtrack.

last thing from me this time: WATCH THIS AWESOME MOVIE!!!
Alpha, Mike, Foxtrot. no, I'm joking. ;)
love ya!

BOOYAH

damn man. I don't really want to update this blog because I am sick. but I can't do the other 2 things that my man told me to do. so here I am.

I was looking at my old pictures and find a link to that image on one of my photos.
lmao.
this is Tarsius. oooorrr, in English, it's Tarsier.

Tarsiers are haplorrhine primates of the genus Tarsius, a genus in the family Tarsiidae, which is itself the lone extant... okay fuck it. read it on wikipedia. lmao. sorry readers. but I really don't feel like typing a lot. I just want to make you sure that I am... STILL ALIVE.

I will talk about something 'smarter' later. but not now. pray for me and this fever. I am (still) afraid of death. love ya!